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I fear  most men and I don't know how to go back to feeling comfortable around everyone. Over the years, I've been used to negative responses from guys. I've snapped at them, and shielded myself from their hurtful words, and now I'm not really sure how to get over this fear.

I've developed major intimacy issues and I miss that feeling I used to have of being close to a guy. I'm so tired of rejection, being made fun of, and being alone and misunderstood.

I hate me.