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I finally was taken to get some help. I was soooooo excited, but then when I got there, I was so scared that I could barely talk.
The lady that I saw (in the psychiatric building) was nice, but I had trouble understanding her, because of her thick accent. lol.
I ended up feeling bad, guilty for not answering questions because mother dearest was sitting there next to me, and I knew that if she knew about my late night pill popping she would freak out on me. Maybe not in the office, but definitely in the car on the way home.
So I ended up saying that no, I had never tried committing suicide.... This sucks.

I got put on some sleeping pills, and i started them last night. I couldn't wake up for school today.
:| So I'm missing school right now. This is uberly sucking!

I'm nervous to go back there again next week. I may be put on some antidepressants, but I dunno...
I'm very scared.