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Everyone keeps asking me "Anah how are you? Christy whats been going on?"
Well for future reference.
i am going bloody well insane. Certified I am and I don't care anymore. The voices and sounds what shut up, the meds I fear have quit working, something happened about three weeks ago now that has set me off so bad I don't want touched, I don't want to think I'm going to be touched. 5ft is not far enough away from me and I'll scream I swear to god..
I'm strarting to see things like a glitch in the bloddy matrix and its not cool... but its the voices and noises that are going to kill me. I can't hack it anymore.
so NO I AM NOT ALLRIGHT! NO SCHIZO-EFFECTIVE DISORDER IS NOT LOLL IPOPS AND RAINBOWS! NO I DON'T WANT TO TALK CAUSE YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND CAUSE YOU CAN'T HEAR WHATS IN MY HEAD OR WHATS GOING ON! NO I CAN NOT LEAVE THE HOUSE AT THE MOMENT UNLESS I AM DRAGGED IT IS FAIRLY TRAMATIC. NO I DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO YOUR ISSUES BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT I MAKE GOD DAMNED MISTAKES SO GET OVER IT. I AM LESS THAN HUMAN.
rant over... I wish I was mary sue.. but I"m no I'm just Anah. I miss Haldir, I miss Shann. I miss quiet heads and being happy all the time.
Well for future reference.
i am going bloody well insane. Certified I am and I don't care anymore. The voices and sounds what shut up, the meds I fear have quit working, something happened about three weeks ago now that has set me off so bad I don't want touched, I don't want to think I'm going to be touched. 5ft is not far enough away from me and I'll scream I swear to god..
I'm strarting to see things like a glitch in the bloddy matrix and its not cool... but its the voices and noises that are going to kill me. I can't hack it anymore.
so NO I AM NOT ALLRIGHT! NO SCHIZO-EFFECTIVE DISORDER IS NOT LOLL
rant over... I wish I was mary sue.. but I"m no I'm just Anah. I miss Haldir, I miss Shann. I miss quiet heads and being happy all the time.