krazyside.livejournal.comWell, this is great. I've just had a great big chunk of my support system yanked away from me. Got thrown out of the club over some drama that happened several months ago, the cunt waited until all my friends had left then (backed up by scumbag cronies) whined to the doorman and ranted at me barely letting me get a word in edgeways.
You know what? Fuck those guys. Fuck 'em in the ear. It's a shitty, cliquey, boring little dive that play mostly crap music anyway. They hardly play any proper goth anymore and there hasn't been a synthpop night yet. It's mostly fake industrial music (ie techno) and crappy guitar heavy power noise. I just can't be arsed with these creeps.
In the meantime, I expect my psychological health to take a nose dive into the abyss. What fun. This year really is turning into a sort of negative image of last year, last year I was happy some of the time because I was with someone but miserable a lot of the time because the person I was with was a raving nutter, this year I'm happy some of the time because I'm not with a raving nutter but miserable a lot of the time because I'm completely alone and the creeps are closing in.
Well, so it goes. Utter isolation and misery beckons. I don't even care anymore, I can can learn to live with being alone but I can't ever learn to live with being surrounded by bullying, gossiping, evil little turds like this asshole, my ex (who is crawling up to him) and their little buddies.
I've been alone most of my life and to brutally honest, I'm used to it. It's being crowded and fucked with by people who want to make me their bitch that gets to me. It's on days like this that I wish the local power station would go critical and the whole city would empty out in panic leaving in peace and fucking quiet.