(no subject)

[iheartsantino.livejournal.com]

i had several emotional breakdowns this weekend. it was triggered each time by my older sister, who i am incapable of being around. i went home for the weekend and after being at home for a grand total of fifteen minutes there was screaming and crying (both me). there was a lot of hiding out in my room alone, crying, making me feel like i was fourteen again. it was complete hell. and i feel bad because it completely baffles my younger sister and i can't explain it to her.

and i don't know how i didn't end up cutting.