grr...

[tear-glazed.livejournal.com]

( x-posted to my own journal )

Dec 6 2005

[nosferatu-yasha.livejournal.com]

So how long have I been in this asylum, I am not sure and for some reason no one wants to tell me. I keep being given drugs and each time within a week I seem to forget everything past that. Any memories I have are just dreams and well my friends I guess aren’t the most talkative type. The doctors mostly leave us alone, we go for canceling but nothing helps and they keep giving us pills no mater what happens.

My friends John, Kristin, Alice and Big D, now there is a bunch a guy like me in my twenty’s to hang out with. John, well at the moment I think he is the closeted thing to a best friend I have, on his good days that is. On his good days we crack dirty jokes at the girls, not like they would under stand anyway so medicated up. On his bad days he mostly just stairs and drools out of the side of his mouth, I hate when they give him those pills. Kristin is a woman twice my age bad has had a weight problem, well I guess she did till she was put in here and now well once a month she gets shocked into changing her life, not a nice thing to see her on the days after, but she is losing weight. Alice, what can I say about her, she would be very attractive is she wasn’t so mousey, and she stairs at me maybe she likes me too but she is afraid of everything, and I mean EVERYTHING. Big D well he is just a Bigfoot of a man, accused I think of murder but ever since he cam in here he stopped talking and is so quiet he would not hurt fly if it landed on him.

Most days I stair out my window, my favorite window I have near the corner of the recreation room, maybe because of the drugs, maybe because I don’t think I belong here, either way I want to leave but if I can’t remember much more then a week previous, do I really have anywhere else to go?

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[secrets-n-lies.livejournal.com]

why do i always hurt the one i love

i am the most lonely i have ever been right now, and i damn well deserve it

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[draco-lily.livejournal.com]

RRRRAWR!!!!!!!!!
ah ha ha ha! life is beautiful!! not really but i am about to kill my bus driver painfully.... no thats not a threat.. teeheehee.
gawd im so hyper.. 4 pots of coffee can do that to you!!
~lily
im sending off my s.s. tomorrow
and the christmas cards so last call if you want one
email your address to me!
draco_lily@hotmail.com

ATTENTION!

[stillbourne.livejournal.com]

Will angel_masochist Please leave a comment to let me know youre OK?

Im worried about you.

holy strawberries batman! we're in a jam!

[domocles.livejournal.com]

I've decided I like xanga.....people who are stupid and trying to insult me give me eprops anyway because they don't pay attention. It makes me laugh. I'll probably be laughing until next week about it.

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[dangerbaby3000.livejournal.com]

i really want to talk to him, not necessarily be friends, but friendly. i just badly want to speak to him. i want to know what he's about now, what he likes, doesn't like, what he thinks about everything going on, what he aspires to be, if anything other than a wrestler.

BUT! ian hates him. i'm not allowed any contact. he gets mad, "why do you need to talk to him, i thought you hated him, blah blah blah, i wouldn't do this to you." even though he does. everytime he talks to that disgusting waste of carbon creation, he is doing it to me. oh but they're just friends. it's different. somehow. but i wouldn't ask him to give up one of his friends for me. never have in 4 years.

i don't even know if he would want to talk to me. i think i sort of burned any bridges that might have existed--no, not burned, lined with c4 and exploded. i was a fucking BITCH. but he deserved it, of course. first love that lasted way too long, that was way too immature, too much too fast. but we've both grown up with parrallell lives (he knows the same people i do), and it seems i'm almost desparate to cling to my past. maybe that's why i wanna keep in touch with him so bad. i'm over the past. but i can't let it completely go.

seems i'm damned if i do, damned if i don't.

*hops on the bandwagon*

[wiisp.livejournal.com]

I figured maybe I could be nice and send Christmas cards. Anyone wishing to get one, send your address to bloodgardenia@gmail.com

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[undivinemartyrx.livejournal.com]

i'm on a diet and i'm exercising, i'm going to lose weight yay! i'm finally forcing myself to diet and exercise, i'm tired of being a fat slob, i don't wanna go to college looking like this, so yeah everyone wish me luck

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[maideleh.livejournal.com]

To anyone who might be concerned:

I went to the doctor today. She took some blood and urine and poked around a bit and it does not seem to be an emergency. But I have to go to a gastroenterologist within the next few days. And if something like last night happens again I am to go straight to the Emergency Room.

Thanks for caring, guys. <33

HHHHHEEEEEEEEYYYYYYY

[draco-lily.livejournal.com]

this is the very last chance for christmas cards...
not really cuz if you email me later i'll sned one, but i wanna send um out tomorrow, so dont procrasinate!!!!!

email your adress to
draco_lily@hotmail.com
and you will definatly get a very personal card form me, not just something from hallmark, ya'll enjoy um!!!

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[draco-lily.livejournal.com]

Just thought i would be one of the cool kids....

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! Last week I helped marryah_noche across the street (6 points). In August I set carrion_heart's puppy on fire (-66 points). In April I helped suicidal_ideas see the light (8 points). In November I stole this_mad_fever's purse (-30 points). In February I signed my organ donor card (28 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-54 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!! Sincerely, draco_lily

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

christmas question

[carrion-heart.livejournal.com]

what do you really think it was that made rudolphs nose glow so bright?

...

[the-false-god.livejournal.com]

I hope she screams.

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[hypnotica-chik.livejournal.com]

Hey guys!My name is Kim, i'm 17 and I live in Florida. I joined this community because I was hoping that I could find people who understand me, at least a little bit. For the past few years, I have been put on antidepressants frequently. I refuse to take them though because they dull my personality and i'm simply not depressed. For the past few monthes, I have had really strong urges to kill. I'm not saying that people piss me off so I want to kill them, i'm saying that I just get urges to rip someone apart with my bare hands. I'm against (most) violence so these thoughts are slowly killing me inside. I try to make them go away but there is this voice in the back of my head that says "KILL!" all the time. I asked my father to bring me to a pyschiatrist. He keeps putting it off though because I won't tell him why. Does anyone else have this problem(the urges not the father thing)? Also, what would happen if I was brought to a psychiatrist? Is this a mental disorder? Or am I just weird?


Thanks in advance!

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[rottenpeices.livejournal.com]

Anyone currently playing a console game? NOT PC!
If so...whats in the ol' PS2/evil Xbox/360/GC/blah blah/your moms ass?

I've been playing the new Dragons Quest 8. Ah, must add that the FF12 demo ROCKS HARD. Aside from that, the Dragon Quest game is pretty spiffy. So? Out with it, whats playin'?
In other news...I work everyday and drink almost as much as I work. Take enough Vodka and you start invinting some rather interesting drinks. Lastnight was drunkified.

Heeeeeey, I'm watchin' Nip/Tuck which I must admit grew on me and heard a fantastic quote: "Death is lifes ultimate orgasim". I hope it doesn't dissapoint when the time comes around.

E