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[xxlust4bloodxx.livejournal.com]

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[xxlust4bloodxx.livejournal.com]

well huu ..... tierd is me and very bored there really hasnt been much going on over here cause im a very boreing person so not much happens in my life thats worth telling people blah....

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[stillbourne.livejournal.com]

ok, it was good of me to leave me notes.
example:
(if you havent already guessed, stickynotes on passwords and where to post are on the computer)
plus
a message on the fridge that read:
"read me:"
(I opened it)
this is in case you blacked out again.
your name is jennifer
you are thirty, you live in seattle, in this townhouse.
you are married to a drag queen named Jamie who should be there. if he is not dont worry
Your brother Jason also lives with you as well as another girl named Cara who is your friend.
you also have 2 cats, ghost and damien. ghost is the younger grey one. Damien will run from you.
Your journal is by the bed upstairs and to the left.
Your photos are in the same place.
DO NOT ANSWER THE PHONE OR THE DOOR IF YOU ARE ALONE.

IN CASE NO ONE IS HOME AND NONE OF THIS SPARKS YOUR MEMORY:
check the time and the calendar right now. (look left for the clock and right for the calendar)
if it is office hours of 9-5 monday through friday, call (number) this is your doctor's office, (insert dr name). Tell the person on the other end it is an emergency and have them advise you. they know your situation and can help.
if it is not office hours, call (number) these are friends. C****** and J*** will come over and sit with you until your husband gets home.

If you are hurt call the crisis line: (number)

You will not be alone for long.
If all is well, watch Television until someone gets there and can help you. Use the thin remote for the TV.

Relax.
All is well.

Your sane side:
Jennifer






I have been alone for hours.
What if they left me for good?
what if I have become a burdeon and they left?
Im worried.
Im scared.
I will sit here a bit longer then I will go looking for these people.
they cant be far.

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[carrion-heart.livejournal.com]

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[mistresspaije.livejournal.com]

Chained to this ideology, the reminants of an Empire expired
Malable concepts of morality do nothing but destroy honesty
Decaying right when wrong thrives under the thumb of "rightousness"
Begging for blessings from inanimate gods of war and greed
Writing off those who oppose evil and don't agree.
It has nothing and everything to do with everyone and noone.






Copywright 2003

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[stillbourne.livejournal.com]

Im ok.
as soon as my husband got home and called my name, things snapped back into focus.
sorry to post all that.
still dont know why I decided to post at all this time.
but, yeah... um, thats my problem. not that I really like airing things out like that...
::VERY embarrassed. so sorry::


its no mystery: you should obviously go before i break everything
you’re always telling me that youre dying to know but you’re not really listening
how do i manage to station myself in harms way
the voices are infesting up through the floorboards and they’re murmuring murder me
if i could shut them out just for an hour i swear...it would look like and accident...
thirty whacks, dresden dolls

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[jeezis.livejournal.com]

i went away for a week because i had a mental breakdown of sorts. but, i'm back and on my meds and feeling a lot better. thank you guys for your comments/suggestions/hugs :) this community is the best! my journal posts more fully explain how i've been feeling so if you want to learn more just head over to jeezis love you all! and i'm here to stay!

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[rowthepiano.livejournal.com]

What the fuck is wrong with humanity. I drove down the road and saw empty land, thats how it used to be. Humanity ruins everything. We all just build to destroy. Fuckers...

what the f***

[dementedheather.livejournal.com]

I don't know what's going on with me now. I just spent half an hour under the shower, huddled in a corner, hugging my legs, letting the cold water pour down on my like rain. I feel so strange... nothing really happened, actually. But all of a sudden I got these strange feelings.

I kept touching the lines in my palm. I felt like I lost contact with reality. Everything around me started looking unreal. Like a wake dream. Everything seemed to melt.
My hands felt numb. Like they didn't belong to me. They felt like the hands of someone else. I started wondering if I ever had my own hands at all. I felt like cutting them off. I felt like a mechanic puppet of some sort and everything around me looked so far away though it was so close. Like some evil trip. I was asking myself if I would ever wake up.

I am crying right now. I don't know why. I am not sad really, but I can't stop those tears. I feel like totally f*cked. Some pile of crap piled up in a corner to rot. Why is this? I want to destroy myself. But I can't, I just can't... I can't cease existence though I feel like I am fading....

Bah. I'm talking crap. Just forget it. Maybe I should take more medication.

And as i stood at the edge of the world......

[connor-obain.livejournal.com]

....I said to my self

"If you want to fly, your going to have to let go."



Photo by Tony Hamilton