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I was just browsing communities and found this one. It seemed cool so I joined. And here I am. And I guess I should share now...

My mom is really starting to annoy me. Sometimes when I'm bored I draw these pictures that I guess you can call "morbid" and put them on the walls of my room. And they're all black and red. Just a few examples of them is one where I wanted to see how good I could draw hands so I drew two arms and one held a knife, cutting the other's wrist and theres one where the a line is slowly falling flat. Just simple pictures to me. But my mom thinks I'm now depressed and suicidal and that I'm aetheist. More like agnostic but whatever. Then she rants at me about all this stuff and how my pictures mean things that I never even thought about. Then my neighbor's son killed himself and I was just wondering out loud, "Where could you find a place to hang yourself in an apartment when you can touch the floor?" And then my mom looks at me and says, "I won't tell you. You might get some ideas....I don't know. You just seem so suicidal." And that pissed me off. Because I'm not suicidal. I mean, yeah, I may get angry and moody sometimes but I like my life just enough to not become suicidal. If anything or anyone depressed me it would be her, always talking about how "depressed" I am. If you knew me, you'd see I'm not suicidal. I asked alot of people and they're all like, "God, no." Unless maybe I'm one of those people that are called "ticking-bombs" that are supposed to seem happy and all but inside they keep all their problems until they finally explode. And I doubt I'm to be as far as a "ticking bomb." But I guess the excuse that has been given to parents acting like that is because they love you. So lucky me. w00t. I guess. =/