HELLLLLP!!!!

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Argh...someone gimmie some feedback, PLEASE?!
I need help...
See...it's about college and stuff.
I got in this program that pays for your books and classes, and that lasts up until your almost 22. It's for 16 to 21-year-olds =/ So yeah...it's a good program when it comes to money troubles and budgets...yup.
But the thing is...it's kind of limited of it's location and crap...grrrrr...
So the only one close to where I live (Seattle, WA) is North of Seattle, in Shoreline, at the Shoreline Community College.
It's okay here...but I honestly don't want to stay in this damn program for another 2 years, I don't want to stay STUCK living here for 2 damn years...grrrrrrr!
I want to travel, and I also kinda want to move somewhere else...maybe Colorado, and I don't want to wait 2 years.
And then there are these money problems...and I want to get a damn part-time job (I've never had one before), and then I feel guilty that my parents (mom actually) help me with my apartment and stuff.
This is all so goddamn fruserating...I don't know what to do.
I want to move closer to the stupid city, and then move to another state...but places to live COST more near the city...and yeah...it's not like I'm from a poor family...but still...I worry about money now, a trait I got from my dad...damn him!
YEah...so...yeah...and I'm not sure how the whole financial aid thing works.
I want to know more about it, so maybe it would help me.
And I wish I did a LOT better in classes than I do now, as well as being able to attend a lot more regularily that I am now...damn me!
So yeah...if anyone ends up actually reading all this, and kind of understands or is going through the same thing...could you please gimmie some advice or feedback? I'd really appreciate it...thanks....=(
G'bye...

~Raven