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Scryptic Returns
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liliuth.livejournal.comBuuuut I totally forgot my password ages ago so meh. I don't know if there's still many here that were in the comm way back when but hello nonetheless!
My daughter is 4 now, nearly 4.5. She's a monster and I adore her. Alas my life is not so exciting anymore. I lack the spunk for dysfunction I once had so in my down time (when I'm not working or momming) I'm reading or looking after my critters. Exciting, right?
I had a bit of a spiritual epiphany in the last year or so and discovered that my issues with anxiety were actually a gift, one I have not been using properly. I once thought I was just extremely anti-social...incapable of human relationships because even being around people or in the same room as a few would set off mental sirens and I would damn near climb the walls or leave.
I moved out of town and befriended a girl who I had known before who is an avid spiritualist and a healer. This girl is amazing...she's just...pure. Her heart and soul fills the air around her with such radiant comfort she's out of this world. That was nearly two years ago. Now I consider her my best friend and my sister, she has helped me see things so clearly.
She told me I have a very powerful ability to read energy but I haven't learned to block the negative. And she advised me to buy certain stones and crystals to level myself. I have done so for a while now and really focused on my ability (or controlling it) and I can tell you now my anxiety as a condition is gone. Now I know that there are reasons for the bad feelings I get around others and they are warnings about other people that The Lady is giving me.
I found my spirit guides: The Adder, The Stag and The Wren and believe it or not they do show themselves to me, among other guides making themselves readily available without my asking.lol
But crows are still my...my kin, my brethren, really. They have watched me since I was a kid and guided me so. Perhaps it is the Morrigan, perhaps not.
Sounds a little loopy? It must. But I can promise it is my reality and all things combined I now have the best spiritual back up in the universe. I struggle (as any single Mom does) but I'm looked after. The elements whisper such things and the wind always sustains me.
My daughter is 4 now, nearly 4.5. She's a monster and I adore her. Alas my life is not so exciting anymore. I lack the spunk for dysfunction I once had so in my down time (when I'm not working or momming) I'm reading or looking after my critters. Exciting, right?
I had a bit of a spiritual epiphany in the last year or so and discovered that my issues with anxiety were actually a gift, one I have not been using properly. I once thought I was just extremely anti-social...incapable of human relationships because even being around people or in the same room as a few would set off mental sirens and I would damn near climb the walls or leave.
I moved out of town and befriended a girl who I had known before who is an avid spiritualist and a healer. This girl is amazing...she's just...pure. Her heart and soul fills the air around her with such radiant comfort she's out of this world. That was nearly two years ago. Now I consider her my best friend and my sister, she has helped me see things so clearly.
She told me I have a very powerful ability to read energy but I haven't learned to block the negative. And she advised me to buy certain stones and crystals to level myself. I have done so for a while now and really focused on my ability (or controlling it) and I can tell you now my anxiety as a condition is gone. Now I know that there are reasons for the bad feelings I get around others and they are warnings about other people that The Lady is giving me.
I found my spirit guides: The Adder, The Stag and The Wren and believe it or not they do show themselves to me, among other guides making themselves readily available without my asking.lol
But crows are still my...my kin, my brethren, really. They have watched me since I was a kid and guided me so. Perhaps it is the Morrigan, perhaps not.
Sounds a little loopy? It must. But I can promise it is my reality and all things combined I now have the best spiritual back up in the universe. I struggle (as any single Mom does) but I'm looked after. The elements whisper such things and the wind always sustains me.
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