thoughts..on going thoughts

[willowashes.livejournal.com]

*letting you all know im still here*

today. unlike most days
i was happy. i think
at one moment at least.

im still in peices i think
tape. lol doesnt seem to work
nor glue
or even rubberbands..

i keep having constent dreams
the same dreams
about what i hope is love?
or death?

im not sure
i have a feeling that sometimes dyeing over someone is love..
or the love dyeing
im not sure anymore..

today i finally went and checked my lj.
i had a many o' messages.

tonight i cried.
crying.

i am young
stong- sometimes.
out going.
but closed off.
lost.

is it bad to feel so very small?
why i feel there is not a happy place for me?
because i am so young
have seen and done so little.
but have been forced to live and grow sooo fast?
that i should feel i dont belong anymore, anywhere.

these days have been tough under my mask.
im sorry i havent written sooner..