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*sigh*
Responsibility...
I hate it.
I feel like it may be more so than your average person. The thought of school and work make me feel like I'm going to be sick. It's so drull, so mundane... the same thing day in, day out... never changing, always just as boring every day. Every time I get a new job, I spend the whole first week feeling physically ill... High fever, puking, dizziness... but I'm never actually sick, I'm pretty sure it's all in my head.
The call to adventure is still so loud in my heart, the want, the need to find something new every day. To meet someone, see something, experience ANYTHING different from the ordinary.
The woods, the mountains, the ocean... they call to me like some kind of beautiful, slinky, whispy, woman. Her huge eyes set on mine, hypnotizing me... Her long, pale fingers curling, telling me to abandon everything. Begging me to the winds of adventure. Of new happenings...
But no, I have to grow up now. The age of pirates and discovery is long gone. A faint memory, a sweet taste in the back of my mind... *sigh*
How could I do this to myself? What happened? My heart screams "ADVENTURE! ACTION! GO! GO! GO! YOU'RE MISSING IT ALL!" at my brain. And my brain screams "APPEASE THE HEART! THE HEART IS MASTER!" but then my body just... doesn't....
I guess I'm just another washed up adventurer... a pilot without an airship... my goggles are gathering dust hanging on the wall, my pistol is rusted and broken... my sword, dull and brittle.
It's time to grow up, captain...
Responsibility...
I hate it.
I feel like it may be more so than your average person. The thought of school and work make me feel like I'm going to be sick. It's so drull, so mundane... the same thing day in, day out... never changing, always just as boring every day. Every time I get a new job, I spend the whole first week feeling physically ill... High fever, puking, dizziness... but I'm never actually sick, I'm pretty sure it's all in my head.
The call to adventure is still so loud in my heart, the want, the need to find something new every day. To meet someone, see something, experience ANYTHING different from the ordinary.
The woods, the mountains, the ocean... they call to me like some kind of beautiful, slinky, whispy, woman. Her huge eyes set on mine, hypnotizing me... Her long, pale fingers curling, telling me to abandon everything. Begging me to the winds of adventure. Of new happenings...
But no, I have to grow up now. The age of pirates and discovery is long gone. A faint memory, a sweet taste in the back of my mind... *sigh*
How could I do this to myself? What happened? My heart screams "ADVENTURE! ACTION! GO! GO! GO! YOU'RE MISSING IT ALL!" at my brain. And my brain screams "APPEASE THE HEART! THE HEART IS MASTER!" but then my body just... doesn't....
I guess I'm just another washed up adventurer... a pilot without an airship... my goggles are gathering dust hanging on the wall, my pistol is rusted and broken... my sword, dull and brittle.
It's time to grow up, captain...