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My friend Wren has depression. I understand what it is and what it does. I've been there when she needs to cry, I've woken up and driven to see her at 2 in the morning cause she was having bad thoughts. I've bent over backwards to make her happy. I 've been the good friend ! Yet she calls me (when she damn well know I can't get to my phone or email) at a Figure skating competition,leving a voice mail I quote "Why do you do this,running off when I need you the most? I am there for you...but I guess I am the better friend." I want to scream, How dare she say I am never there for her ! I skate to keep me sane,to keep me from harming myself. She has never been there for me ! Where was she when I was in court,when I was in E.R , in bed with swine flu! She was crying cause her boyfriend left her (she back with him for the 4th time) I even plan her party when I had swine flu. She blames everything on her depression,can't work she depressed,can't go to school she depressed,can't call in to say she has quit she too depressed. I had a relasp of cutting after talking to her . I am I wrong to cut the friendship off if I going back to my old way?