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I hate life. Life hates me.

I feel lonelier than ever before, and school has started. I'm surrounded by people and I still feel very alone. Going from class to class and room to room with other teenagers chatting amongst themselves. But most of my classes have none of my close friends in them, so I sit a my desk and daydream of having a life. Having freedom.

I wish something exciting would happen to me. All that happens in my life is the added stress, cranky teachers, and more homework. To add on, I'm getting a job.

I feel empty. There's nothing to make life exciting. I work to live and I wait to die. I want to escape but there isn't a way to.

I'm taking pills everyday for different reasons,  I'm ugly inside and out, and my brain seems to act bipolar because I have this uncontrollable hatred towards men that fades in and out.

I want death to come and take me away.