We've fallen apart
Apr. 9th, 2009 07:53 pm![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
In the midst of my parents getting a divorce...my sister losing her mind...my brother getting beat up by my other sister and there being no consequences...
In the midst of my siblings raising themselves while my mother prepares to fuck other men and my father prepares to kill himself...
In the midst of my marriage crumbling and an oblivious husband...while even now he plays EQ from the time he gets home until the time he goes to sleep...
I am ignored, my confidence shattered, my life so screwed up beyond belief...and I don't know how to ask for my own divorce or how to quit my job. I'm held by ontological security.
I met someone. I really like him. I want to be with him like all the time but I can't, obviously, those reasons exist, and am I a bad person for having feelings for someone like this?
Could I really go back on the morals that are the only thing I really have anymore?
In the midst of my siblings raising themselves while my mother prepares to fuck other men and my father prepares to kill himself...
In the midst of my marriage crumbling and an oblivious husband...while even now he plays EQ from the time he gets home until the time he goes to sleep...
I am ignored, my confidence shattered, my life so screwed up beyond belief...and I don't know how to ask for my own divorce or how to quit my job. I'm held by ontological security.
I met someone. I really like him. I want to be with him like all the time but I can't, obviously, those reasons exist, and am I a bad person for having feelings for someone like this?
Could I really go back on the morals that are the only thing I really have anymore?