taken from my personal journal again
Mar. 2nd, 2009 09:39 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
".....all was going well until he started talking about these shows he's going to go to with his buddies. it made me feel like crap because he knows how much of a music nut i am, and he used to invite me to everything with him, now i don't get shit. and he makes up these excuses like, "the show is pretty hardcore, i don't want you to get hurt." or "I didn't think you would want to go" or "i feel bad that you're the only girl there". which all sounds like a load of crap to me, but w/e. so he pulled up to my place and i gave him a quick kiss and then i left. usually i'll linger and kiss on him, but he was being annoying. i love him to death, but he unintentionally hurts my feelings sometimes. it's common courtesy just to ask if i'd like to go..even though i'd probably say no anyway, because i like to have time with my friends, and i like knowing that he has time with his, so that when we spend time together, it makes it that much better. and i know what you're saying: "why be upset that he didn't ask you if you're just going to say no?!" it's the mother-fucking principle of it! and i know i must sound like the ultimate insane and nagging girlfriend, but believe me: i am FAR FROM IT. i'm just human, and i like to know that he's thinking of me when i'm not around. aside from when he masturbates."
i sound fucking neurotic! shoot me!
i sound fucking neurotic! shoot me!