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Feb. 5th, 2009 11:05 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
Need help, guys.
I have long term recurrent major depressive episodes. Lately I've been kind of approaching a crisis. I've been hurting worse, the suicidal thoughts are much, much worse, everything's crashing. I'm on two meds, I see a psychiatrist regularly and currently I have crisis team involvement too, but nothing helps. Not even having my boyfriend around makes me feel better any more.
Here's the thing: my psych is worried. She wants me to be in hospital because she doesn't think I'm safe at home. She's probably right. I spend half my time wanting to jump off the (third floor) balcony just to feel the pain. But I do not want to go into hospital.
I have a life, I function, I need to keep doing so. I would have to tell my uni, my family, my boyfriend's family. I can't, I won't. I can't miss so much uni, I can't relinquish that level of control.
So, help me. Please, if you have any idea how I can stay out of hospital, let me know.
Thanks.
I have long term recurrent major depressive episodes. Lately I've been kind of approaching a crisis. I've been hurting worse, the suicidal thoughts are much, much worse, everything's crashing. I'm on two meds, I see a psychiatrist regularly and currently I have crisis team involvement too, but nothing helps. Not even having my boyfriend around makes me feel better any more.
Here's the thing: my psych is worried. She wants me to be in hospital because she doesn't think I'm safe at home. She's probably right. I spend half my time wanting to jump off the (third floor) balcony just to feel the pain. But I do not want to go into hospital.
I have a life, I function, I need to keep doing so. I would have to tell my uni, my family, my boyfriend's family. I can't, I won't. I can't miss so much uni, I can't relinquish that level of control.
So, help me. Please, if you have any idea how I can stay out of hospital, let me know.
Thanks.