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take my soul, consume me whole.

I can't stop thinking about the last time I tried to kill myself & by all rights, why am I still walking around?

The situation is so similar to last time it scares me. I've lost me second child in as many years, just this time the father wasn't a rapist who beat me & everything seems to be raining in as miserable.

My life isn't bad, not brilliant, but not bad & I feel bad for feeling bad & the guilt eats away at me leaving me floundering.

a woke up one & didn't know whence i came