Ramblings

[necromanticize.livejournal.com]

What do you do to help remember to take your meds?
I have such a hard time with remembering to take ANY sort of pills, be it my zoloft, birth control, or just simple daily vitamins.

Also, I have had some good long talks with a friend of mine. He really thinks I need to stop being so hard on myself, which is something I know and agree with, but when you have practically no self-esteem and the only opinions you form of yourself are those of other people, it's not the easiest thing to do. I've always had a difficult time seeing myself in a good light. It's not that I see myself badly most of the time...it's more that I feel I'm just someone that is there.

And when the one person you want the most doesn't want you back, you make assumptions. I've always felt like the type of person that no one really wanted to be around, they just talked to me because I was there. And so I feel that perhaps he only wanted me because... it was convenient. It hurts a lot, and makes me feel like a complete idiot, but it makes sense to me. Logically I know that probably wasn't the case, but it might help me get over it sooner to believe it was the case. The only problem then is that it makes me wonder how many people actually do care that I even exist half the time, and I fall into a state of feeling sorry for myself again.

How do you work on feeling better about yourself? Especially when the only person you want to love you doesn't seem to care?

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[x-cupkake.livejournal.com]

*clicks on loudspeaker*

Evening residents!
I just thought I would let y'all know a few things that are going on :)

There will be something happening over the winter period for y'all, so don't think we're forgetting you!

I have updated my inbox on nurse_station with my new email address (nurse_cherry@hotmail.co.uk).  I can't stress enough, if you have a problem, or need someone to talk to and it seems there are none of us online, please email me, as I will be checking my emails more frequently.

Well, I should be online most of the night working on various things and admin, so feel free to message me if you need me :)

*loudspeaker dies out*

Edited to add:
New updated myspace: http://www.myspace.com/_asylum_
I will be logging on regularly, so this is another way to contact staff if needed.

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[wiisp.livejournal.com]

Do I not belong here anymore? Did I never belong here in the first place?

Every time I've posted in here, it seems my entries get overlooked by the majority or entirety of the people in this community. Even when I was a nurse here, there was only ever one person who came to me for anything - I never felt like I was really accepted here. Other people get tons of comments on their entries, why is it too much to ask for some comments on mine? I thought this was a support community.

My real friends haven't so much as called me to ask if I was okay since the incident on Saturday, neither have any of them asked if I wanted to do anything, hang out, go get some dinner, or whatever.

Guess I shouldn't be surprised that people I barely know don't give a shit about me when the people I've considered real friends for five or ten years don't even give a shit.