relization of life

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hey guys,
how is everyone? i'm doing ok, just dealing with a lot of stuff going on. im thinking of moving out of here and moving to the other side of here. i cant deal with all the crap anymore and just realizes i cant. ive been talking to this one guy and he is being awesome and just helping me deal with life. i just wish for once i can stop cutting. i know i have in the past and now i really cant. its hard. i mean i have a really good job and my friends really dont seem to understand how i feel about everything. i mean honestly, i dont care that you have a boyfriend, but understand i love your son. he is very precious to me. he is someone that ill never have in my life. ive already suffered a miscarriage and had an abortion. i dont have the same type of family you do. and cant really go and talk to them about any of this. i cant talk to my parents because i dont have any of them. ok, im done talking. im starting to cry. i need to drink and get high...or maybe not..get high but drink.