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Am I weird to like medication? I always hear about people so opposed to taking it and really don't understand. I guess the "I'm not myself" complaint makes people dislike it? General discomfort with the idea of putting something unnatural in the body? Or they don't like the way they feel?
Of course I haven't had many negative experiences...I'm always focused on how the drug will help me rather than the fact that I'm taking something, and the fthe benefits almost always outweigh the side effects. On the rare occasions that they don't, I just switch. I've taken Wellbutrin XL on and off for a couple of years now and it is my miracle drug. It saved my life. Recently, I began taking Concerta as well, because Wellbutrin took care of the depression and not the ADHD. The Concerta, while it DID help me concentrate, made me absolutely crazy: anxious and twichy, paranoid (and perhaps slightly delusional), too wrapped up in doing things to sleep at night, confused, and more forgetful than I normally am. Perhaps this is reason behind people hating meds, but even what I went through was better than sleeping all the time, doing almost no work at all, and having a mess in all aspects of life. Anyway, I was switched to Adderall so we'll see if that one's better.
I'm incompetent and dysfunctional on my own, really. It was the reason I started taking medicaton in the first place, so I guess I feel I have nothing to lose if the effects are bad...if I'm not myself, it doesn't matter to me because I don't like myself anyway and anything is better than my personality as-is. I say this not in search of some weird kind of sympathy, but because that's the way my life really is.
So what are your thoughts? Do you take anything and what for? Do you like your meds? If you should be taking something and aren't, why? I'm interested to hear your answers.