greetings

[shalaraven.livejournal.com]

Greetings to all. I am new here. Please allow me to introduce myself. My name is Delmore Ţepeş, and i am from Bucharest, Romania. I have come here to deliver a warning. Lately, i have been plagued by a particualar dream, and I now know that this place is the same one that will be involved.

Here is the dream that i had.

And I saw when the Fallen One opened one of the seals, and I heard, as it were the noise of thunder, one of the four beasts saying, Come forward.
And I saw, and behold a white horse: and he that sat on him had a bow; and a crown was given unto him: and he went forth conquering, and to conquer.
And when he had opened the second seal, I heard the second beast say, Come forward.
And there went out another horse that was red: and power was given to him that sat thereon to take peace from the earth, and that they should kill one another: and there was given unto him a great sword.
And when he had opened the third seal, I heard the third beast say, Come forward. And I beheld, and lo a black horse; and she that sat on him had a pair of balances in her hand.
And I heard a voice in the midst of the four beasts say, A measure of wheat for a penny, and three measures of barley for a penny; and see thou hurt not the oil and the wine.
And when he had opened the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth beast say, Come forward.
And I looked, and behold a pale green horse: and his name that sat on him was Death, and Hell followed with him. And power was given unto them over the fourth part of the earth, to kill with sword, and with hunger, and with death, and with the beasts of the earth. And through him, shall echo the despair and woe of many men, woman and child.

In my dream on the 3rd horse, the rider was in the form that of a woman, a dark haired woman, with dark crying eyes and wrists that ran with blood. In her right hand that held the scales, she wore a ring that glowed with an unholy aura, and in her other hand she held, what appeared to be a doll of light of some sorts. The 4th and last horseman spoke that while his mission in life was to save, his mission now would be to forsake the unrepented ones.


Does anyone know what this could posssibly mean?

Peace of mind.

[persephone-thea.livejournal.com]

There is nothing like a little bit of upset to really make me examine my life. I know that I have problems, but as long as I know that and continue to work on them, that is all anyone can expect from me. It is all I should expect from myself. I will always try to do the right things and improve on the wrong and that is the only way to go about life. No one should ever expect to be perfect, there are always things one should reflect on, examine and change.

I am a good person, I am not the best person, but I am the best person I can be. I may not always say or do the right things, but I always think about what I have done, good or bad and learn from both the misteaks and the rights. Self doubt is an ugly thing and feeling like less of a person than you are is self doubt, whether or not you or someone else inflicted it. 

( Cut for length but please read. )

X-posted to my LJ

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[shalaraven.livejournal.com]

Hello again, new friends. Let me first say that i am thankful for the warm welcome that i received. It is good to be around such kindred spirits, like federal_duck for one.

Anyways, since i am new here, may i ask a question. Who is the administrator of this place? Who is in charge of running this place? And how exactly do i contact them?

Whoes got the balls?

[rottenpeices.livejournal.com]

This is not for the weak, MY BRUTAL HONEST SURVEY
Place an "X" on what you have done or in some cases thought.

I'm hoping to tap into the part of us all that we are either ashamed of or afraid of. You must conquer your past and in order to do that you must ADMIT to yourself at the least and even better OPENLY admit these things to others. So, you got the balls to have no secrets? Then go ahead an place that fuckin' X. If you lie...you are meerly lying to yourself and repressing yourself even further...which would just be pathetic. Also please feel free to add additional information about a subject if you so wish to further show the world that YOU are accepting of your own past. Have some balls.

This survey was created by E "The guy you love to hate but hate to love"

Now lets begin with a taboo subject according to modern soceity. Drug use.

[ ] Have you done what is considered a "narcotic" under the law of your state?

[ ] Have you lost count on how many times you have been "fucked up"?

[ ] Are you currently addicted to a narcotic OR another mind altering substance...I.E. over the counter pills, prescription meds, ALCOHOL?

[ ] Have you ever "blacked out" during an occassion where you were "getting fucked up"?

[ ] If you have blacked out, have you done something that the word "embaressed" doesn't even cover it? *I give props to those who actually go into some detail.

[ ] Ever try to KILL yourself with any sort of drug? *And actually fucking mean to die...not that cry for help bullshit.

[ ] How long ago was the last time you "got fucked up"?

[ ] Simple one...do you like the state of mind you find yourself in while being "fucked up" than being SOBER? Be HONEST!

[ ] Last drug question: Ever drug somebody yourself?

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Very good if you have been honest. Do not be ashamed...we are all human and the only way to improve is to be true to yourself and if other people can see this...at the very least...your friends. Now, what else can I ask about?

The complexities of the relationships we have with others

[ ] Ever fuck someone SIMPLY and SOLEY for their looks?

[ ] EVER have a "one night stand"?

[ ] If so...did you regret it? Only place an "X" if you did.

[ ] Have you ever fucked someone JUST to make someone jelouse?

[ ] Ever cheat? HONESTY PEOPLE!

[ ] If you have cheated...did you in all honesty give a shit about the person you were cheating on? *posters note: I don't think someone can cheat and truely love the person they are fucking over

[ ] If you cheated...did you have the DECENCY to either end it or confess?

[ ] Ever have a LONG TERM affair behind your significants others back? *This can be during any time line

[ ] Heres a scary one...: Ever contract an STD? A lot of you are gunna lie about this one.

[ ] Ever knowingly fuck someone else with that STD?

[ ] Let's say you are attracted to someone and you were not sure if they were in return...would you make yourself "easy access"?

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Congragulations to those of you that answered to all those questions HONESTLY! If not...you are pathetic. I think that's enough of that subject...though I COULD go on and on with it. Let it be known though may seem hypocritcal given my past...that I HAVE cheated BUT...only if I was cheated on first. NOT that that makes it acceptable.
I shall now shift gears to my favorite subject...the human psych. Most importantly...just how HONEST you are willing to be on this topic.

[ ] This one is simple and a good stepping stone to lead off into how much darker the survey will get: Do you consider yourself "crazy", "insane", "off the fucking wall" or to sugur coat it..."in your own little world"?

[ ] Do you feel disconnected from society?

[ ] Not meaning to sound redundent here but: Do you consider yourself too "weird"?

[ ] Have you ever been diagnosed with ANY disorders? I.E. Anxiety, depression...those are the simple most well known ones. If you have...please be honest and tell us all what you have been diagnosed with.

[ ] Are you masochistic?

[ ] Are you sadist? *that means the enjoyment of inflicting pain

FYI- if you marked both of the above with an X, you are what is called a "Sadomasochist"

[ ] Are you generally afriad of people?

[ ] Do you generally hate most people?

[ ] Are you hot tempered or generally full of rage?

[ ] Has someone ever made you angry enough to the point where you FANTASIZED of hurting this person?

[ ] Has someone made you so angry that you actually CONTEMPLATED killing him/her?

[ ] Have you ever actually PLOTTED OUT in your head or any other means "getting away with murder"?

[ ] Do you think about suicide often?

[ ] Are you in anyway racist to a specific ethnic group?

[ ] Do you have what some may call an "unhealthy" fascination with serial killers or stories about murder?

[ ] Hell, do you actually admire a serial killer?

[ ] Are you a violent drunk? *examples are appreciated with this question

[ ] Do you believe in "the guy in the sky" or what some call..."god"?

[ ] Would you kill if you thought god wanted you to?

[ ] Very simple one: Have you ever been in an intense physical fight?

[ ] Ever have a near death experience?

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I am oh so very proud to those of you who are taking this survey and being honest. Since I must wrap this up I have one more subject...

The Law

[ ] Have you ever been arrested?

[ ] Have you ever been CHARGED with a FELONY?

[ ] What about a mistorminor?

[ ] Done time in jail?

[ ] Do you hate the law?

[ ] Do you even hate the people that serve the law?

[ ] Ever think about going out in some sort of "blaze of glory" in a dramatic, public gun fight?

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I think I shall end it here...if you don't want to INCRIMINATE yourself so PUBLICLY I do give you permission to reply to me with the filled out survey. However I would like to see circulation of this post so at least...for me...repost it...unanswered if you like.

Accept thine self for whom you are. Accept the things that have come and gone. Acceptance and honesty are the keys to growing up. Remember that. Some of you...if not many...are not ready for that part of life. However...lets see who is.


E