Old rediscovered entry from my journal, you might find it interesting

[commie-mania.livejournal.com]

Another Satanic Mystical Experience

Seriously, I am getting fucking predictable. I fucking hate my country. I fucking hate these pathetic excuses for existence around me that all so desparately are trying to prove to me that they are somehow better. Fuck them. Fuck the shitheaded assholes, fuck orkut, fuck cellphones, limos, Ecko shirts, Sean John and all those other things which are completely alien to me. I would rather drown myself or die in a cellar starving and raped in my ass repetedely than buy a shirt that says the name of my school on it. I would rather choke on a razorblade than go and fight for my country. I wouldn't go and fight for any country for that matter. None of them are worth any shread of respect. Our species does not deserve any shread of respect. I think that a lot of us should die in order for us to start valuing each other and take proper care of our planet. Fuck us. I hope the aliens will blow us out of our miserable existence, that is about the only thing that would solve all our problems.
"She'll come back as fire
And burn all the liars
Leave a blanket of ash on the ground"




I used to have some serious anger issues. Still do sometimes.

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[rockmybitch.livejournal.com]

Hello.

My name is Kristi, Krispi, or Mitch... if you feel so inclined.
I've always been interested in how the mind works, may it be in a twisted form or a beautiful one (although, i don't really differentiate the two)... it never ceases to amaze me.

I look forward to reading the ramblings and writings of those apart of this community.
Even crazy people get lonely, but only sometimes.

this is where you welcome me

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[xlovexyourxhate.livejournal.com]

Nothing to update about on the girl I met. Haven't been able to talk to her since we first talked. Which is my fault since I was out most of yesterday with my friend for his b-day. When I got home she wasn't online and I was actually asleep last night and she is more of a night person so I probably missed the oppurtunity to talk to her but I had to sleep as I hadn't slept at that point in over 24 hours. If there's anymore news about all this I'll keep you updated. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed that this will end up as something good. I could really use a girlfriend. I'm tired of being alone. Well anyway hopefully I'll talk to her sometime today or tonight. Later everyone.

hello disease.

[brokenrose86.livejournal.com]

so everyone knows about the jackass ex. i spoke of him in my intro. well, as it turns out he got me sick. really sick. yes, that kind of sick. i was not sure, my internist wanted to run a second test to rule out the posibility of a false negative. and i thought it would take a month to come back like the ones at the free clinic. but no. she just called me. "you need to come in as soon as possible." which means that is was positive.

i'm shaking. i think i am going to throw up. or fall down. or something. human immunovirus. acquired immune difficiency syndrone. t-cells. antiretrovirals. i can't think.

Couldn't help myself.

[scryptic.livejournal.com]

Talking with a genuine sociopath is like jabbing a rusty fork in your eye and twisting repeatedly.

It's got to be the most selfish, yet babyish disorder out there.


I know two people with said disorder and more often than not I'd like to curb stomp them both.


Handicaps? A huge obstacle. Mental Retardation? A serious issue. Life threatening diseases? Never to be taken lightly.

Sociopath? Gimme a break.

And I'm not talking about angsty rebellious lack of concern. All that ' I am numb, I feel nothing, the darkness is my comfort' shyte. I'm talking the actual clinical disorder. Where you look at people as objects, and replaceable ones at that. Where your only concern is for yourself yet you're so damn incapable you want to rely on someone else because you feel you deserve it and in the least it is owed to you.


You don't give a shit about me, yet expect me to listen to your endless stories of fabricated victimization and injustice? It's dementia...verbal drool. Why would I care for someone who openly admits they care for no one? Life as an overgrown infant...it's pathetic.

Grow up Dead Heart, the world owes you nothing.

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[poor-turtle.livejournal.com]

I like to wear dirty jeans.

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[rockmybitch.livejournal.com]

I've fallen for a Gay Boy!

I've been trying for the past month to get over this little crush i had on a boy i've known since 7th grade. He's a total sweetheart, not all that intelligent though... but i can look past that. I thought, "this'll fade, it's only a crush"... but this crush has lasted longer than some of my relationships, sad to say. It's probably because i can't have him that i want him so bad.

And for the past three years i've only been dating girls, announcing to the world that i am of the homosexual status.

how embarassing for a gay girl to fall for a gay boy, it's rather ironic.

ok i'll bite

[xlovexyourxhate.livejournal.com]

5 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR BAG/PURSE:
01. i
02. don't
03. have
04. a
05. bag

5 THINGS YOU WEAR EVERYDAY:
01. boxers
02. jeans
03. t-shirt
04. socks
05. boots

5 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
01. lasagna
02. salmom
03. sandwhiches
04. chicken
05. doritos

5 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS:
01. Paul
02. Katie
03. Ky
04. Kat
05. Shea

5 OF YOUR FAVE MOVIES:
01. Star Wars movies
02. LOTR
03. Kevin Smith movies
04. The Breakfast Club
05. Say Anything

5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
01. bed
02. desk
03. computer
04. tv
05. soda cans

5 THINGS YOU ATE TODAY:
01. pizza
02. ice cream
03. sandwhich
04. chicken
05. pudding

5 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
01. music
02. writing
03. diet dr pepper/diet cherry vanilla dr pepper
04. books
05. computer

Bait Cars. Steal One, Go To Jail.

[scryptic.livejournal.com]

These videos are funny. I like the crack smoker one.


http://www.baitcar.com/

<3

[deorcfata.livejournal.com]

I was just thinking....im not a nice person.

 

And you know what?

 

I DONT NEED TO WALK ON EGG SHELLS TO IMPRESS YOU.

Im going to say what I fucking want to say. Im not going to keep my mouth shut. I dont have to fucking "just dont say anything" when I see something or ear something that bothers me.

 

Im a fucking cunt.Get over it.

 

Survey

[scryptic.livejournal.com]

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[jeezis.livejournal.com]

have you ever gone from feeling so on top of the world that you could burst into tears to wanting to swallow a bullet? i just did in a matter of minutes. it's perplexing and frustrating.

bah! humbug!

i suppose i shall go drown my regrets in coffee and cigarettes. if you care to join i promise i won't bite...hard ;)

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[onewho.livejournal.com]

5 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR BAG/PURSE: (backpack?)
01. personal notebook
02. sketchbook
03. candy
04. pencil
05. paper

5 THINGS YOU WEAR EVERYDAY:
01. Boxers
02. Shirt
03. Pants
04. Ring
05. Watch

5 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
01. Sushi (any kind)
02. Other Japenise food
03. Chinese food
04. Steack
05. Other beef like stuff...

5 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS:
01. Jeff
02. Esther
03. Catherine
04. Lorin
05. Aaron

5 OF YOUR FAVE MOVIES:
01. Matrix
02. School of Rock
03. Titian AE
04. Starwars
05. Monty Python's Meaning of Life

5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
01. Compy
02. Bass Guitar
03. Bed
04. Fireworks (hehe)
05. trash

5 THINGS YOU ATE TODAY:
01. Airplane food (ewww...)
02. Chicken
03. Tortilini
04. peanuts
05. blood (my own)


5 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
01. Compy
02. Friends
03. Sleep
04. Love (I'm barly surviving)
05. Indivdualism

because i was bored....bite me

[domocles.livejournal.com]

5 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR BAG/PURSE:
01. knife
02. cd player
03. current book i'm reading (war of the worlds by hg wells, currently)
04. wallet (with things inside)/keys
05. planner

5 THINGS YOU WEAR EVERYDAY:
01. panties/bra
02. shirt
03. pants or skirt (generally complete with bondage straps)
04. shoes (mostly, my torn up no boundaries shoes with the smiley face on the front)
05. my rock the arts bracelet

5 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
01. lasagna
02. jambalaya
03. anything chocolate
04. strawberry ice cream
05. blueberry cream cheese king cake

5 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS:
01. Christa
02. Mandi
03. Amy
04. Emily
05. James

5 OF YOUR FAVE MOVIES:
01. Ever After
02. 10 Things I Hate About You
03. Nightmare Before Christmas
04. Phantom of the Opera
05. Hunchback of Notre Dame

5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
01. loads of books
02. carpet (yes i found it under all that crap)
03. desk complete with Sevvie-Jr.
04. my army of stuffed animals
05. a bed complete with quilts and sheets

5 THINGS YOU ATE TODAY:
01. hot dog
02. pasta with cheese
03. banana
04. bagel
05. um....nothing else

5 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
01. music
02. writing
03. COKE
04. books
05. computer

Meh...

[scryptic.livejournal.com]

Mercy
undone as the fates laugh upon us
Time
the unleashing of thoughts kept away
Faith
the mere hope that existance has meaning
None
we are born and as such we shall stay

Miles
we have travelled, scars teaching our story
Faces
we've seen, some we mock, lest portray
Mirrors
distort as the days urge us onward
Roles
we adorn to achieve or repay

Kept
we are all by our own self-abandon
Guided
we strive yet we bleed our dismay
Lost
those as one, many lonesome and hollow
Life
by the shackles, one freedom, one way.

Cry
for those fallen of illness or quarry
Dance
on the graves of the souls set astray
Once
we were kings as our crowns shone upon us
Now
we as jesters, amuse or dismay.

Mercy
undone as the fates laugh upon us
Time
the unleashing of thoughts kept away
Faith
the mere hope that existance has meaning
None
we are born, heart of stone, flesh of clay.

-C.M.Miller

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[luciddelusion.livejournal.com]

I guess I'll do this too. Follow in the trend. >.>

( That Survey )

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[dangerbaby3000.livejournal.com]

5 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR BAG/PURSE:
01. knife
02. chapstick
03. creditcard/atm card
04. notepad w/pen
05. cell phone

5 THINGS YOU WEAR EVERYDAY:
01. snake ring/turquoise ring
02. panties
03. bra (mostly)
04. pompador
05. my mean-face

5 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
01. HOTWINGS!
02. pastrami sammiches
03. chilidogs (if i make 'em)
04. mint icecream
05. pelon pelo rico!!!!!!!!

5 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS:
01. gina
02. kristine
03. chris
04. john
05. ian of course

5 OF YOUR FAVE MOVIES:
01. labrinth
02. like water for chocolate
03. house of 1000 corpses/devil's rejects
04. eddie izzard's sexy/circle/the other one i can't remember the name of
05. dracula

5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
01. trash
02. clothes
03. futon mattress
04. stupid ass cat hiding in my closet for fuck knows how many nights now
05. sea shells/bones

5 THINGS YOU ATE TODAY:
01. tacos (i made them!)
02. cup o' noodles
03. store-bought sushi
04. doritos
05. banana wax peppers


5 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
01. my awesomeness
02. air
03. music
04. nature shit
05. prolly something else

Got bored so...

[nienanin.livejournal.com]

5 IMPORTANT THINGS INSIDE YOUR BAG/PURSE: (backpack?)
01. phone
02. money
03. lipgloss
04. tempons XD
05. gum

5 THINGS YOU WEAR EVERYDAY:
01. bra
02. Shirt
03. skirt
04. Rings
05. rose quarts necklace

5 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
01. Tortalini
02. Pizza
03. Raviloi
04. Chocolate
05. Cake

5 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS:
01. Jen
02. Char
03. Nick
04. Megan
05. Emily

5 OF YOUR FAVE MOVIES:
01. Lotr: 1
02. Lotr: 2
03. Lotr: 3
04. Starwars
05. Finding Nemo

5 THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
01. Cd player
02. Computer
03. Bed
04. Flute/piccolo
05. trash

5 THINGS YOU ATE TODAY:
01. Salame :P
02. Chicken
03. Tortilini
04. Water
05. Olives


5 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
01. Internet
02. Friends
03. Sleep
04. Love (I'm barly surviving)
05. Nature

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[jeezis.livejournal.com]

why does my ex insist on calling me to go on and on and on about her new boyfriend?

especially why does she insist on talking about her sex life to me?

am i being a pansy because it gets me down that she just gushes and gushes?

at least it's not wasting my anytime minutes i suppose.

i'm just so hyper-sensetive because she has her "perfect" relationship and i have none.

this does make me realize i don't love her and never will again. ever.

but there is still a part of that this hurts and i hate it. i want to rip that part out of me and burn it before spreading the ashes to the winds.

it's times like these i wish i was a sociopath. or a narcissist. or gone.

and people wonder why i drink to excess.