Pothoc

[nekokiss.livejournal.com]

This is under an LJ cut for no reason. I suppose so that people who don't like poetry, don't have to witness it.

( Poetry Time! )

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[darkened-lovex.livejournal.com]

under a cut, might be triggering.

( tie me up, make me bleed )

i'd like to meet some people.. anyone wanna chat?

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[tekno-whore-.livejournal.com]

I feel that I should at least say hello since I joined this community...
cuts and kisses,
Tekno Whore
<3

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[swingsetsuicide.livejournal.com]

Can I post this here? I hope so... I'm literaly in tears right now and I really want to cut myself or kill myself or run away or something... I just dont know how much more I can take...
this is what I posted in my journal-

I'm so depressed... inside I am... on the outside I'm a fucking doll thanks to these medicines... but on the inside I feel dead... I want to be dead... its mostly because of Windham (the town I live in)... I hate it here so badly... I'm afraid of it here... I cant even walk out of the house without even being afraid... I was walking down the street with my dog and I saw Gloria Hail... then I was in the store the day before yesterday or something and saw Tina Bortz and Felicity Shelton (Reeco's gf)... and it scared me to death... I'm terrified... and then when this school year comes- Tina is in my grade and she'll be in my homeroom and sit next to me since both of our names end in B... and I think Felicity is going to be in the High School next year... and it's just going to be horrible... I'm so scared... I just want to get out of this small ass town... its crazy... if it were bigger it wouldnt be so bad... but yea...
This town is like a fucking vacumn... it sucks you in and it pulls you down and it holds you down and you never get out... only a few fortunate people get out... most of the people here never get out... they just live here their whole lives... and they have children and they live their whole lives here and so do their children and so do their children and its the same fucking people year after year... and its sad... and pathetic... and I dont want to be one of those people... and I am willing to do anything not be... even if it resorts to me killing myself... because I cant live here forever... I refuse to... I dont even want to live here now... I'm to afraid to... I'm scared to walk down the road for fear that I'll get jumped... or worse...
and people wonder why I want to run away and kill myself... well theirs your reason... its a good enough reason for me...
I just dont think I can do this any longer... this town is depressing the hell out of me... I hate it... so so so so so badly...
and then I have no friends... no one wants to be my friend... I mean, why would they... I'm stupid and ugly and fat and worthless and depressed and I cut myself and I hate myself and I hate life... why would anyone want to be a friend to that?? They dont... no one wants to hang out with someone like that or be friends with someone like that...
So tell me... why shouldnt I be depressed? Would someone just give me one fucking reason??? I MEAN COME ON! There is no reason... thats the fucked up part of life... theres all these reasons to be depressed but not one God damned reason not to be....
*sigh*
So what the hell... why not die young and save myself... What is it I'd be saving myself from though anyways?

Love,
Me


Okay for some need to know info...
Gloria Hail is the sister of Reeco- the boy who raped me...
Felicity Shelton is Reeco's gf
Tina Bortz is Felicity and Reeco's friend...

I think thats all you would need to know...
but God, I dont know... I'm just so depressed... has anyone ever gone through anything similar to what I'm going through??

Thank you much guys...

Love,
Chelsea

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[rowan-is-me.livejournal.com]

i lost my ring
i left my ring on a tanning bed.
the ring of LIFE
the ring of EXISTENCE
now i will disapear
my finger is naked and thus am not.
i fade.


i hate myself for forgetting it.