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m soo messed up inside and through out my head and heart.

im completely shy and find it impossible to make friends. im sooo depressed, paranoid, delusional, schizophrenic, etc...im completely falling apart that i've built this cold harsh shell at work. im going through a divorce and she was my only best friend i've ever had...she's let me down soo many times. i can't even cry anymore.

im recovering from cardiac arrhythmia. my liver is malfunctioning. my ex just lost my only cat that i was just going to bring home this saturday......i just ca't stop hurting inside from all these things and much more.i've never felt more alone in my life and suicidal...