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It's late - so late it's almost early - and I'm listening to Emilie Autumn and writing because my brain won't shut up and let me sleep.
Spent today bravely holding off depression in anticipation of my first Labour Party meeting. Made it there and it was crap. You know all the boring meetings you've ever had to sit through, like, in your life? Well, double the pointlessness and triple the boredom and you're almost there. Jesus. They were all wierdoes, too. There was a Naive Middle Class Kid, a Stereotypical Working Class Man, a Sneering Man, and a man who looked like a stage magician or a circus ringmaster or something - it was the beard that did it, that and the suit. Oh, and some totally anonymous Party hacks as well, of course. To quote Douglas Coupland, they didn't have any aura.
Jesus wept. That's what's left of Democratic Socialism in this town, is it? I guess we're about fucked then.
After the meeting everyone got together in their little cliques - there was no attempt to welcome me as a newbie or anything, so I just fucked off, got some booze in, went home and watched Vanishing Point. Then to bed and worry about how to leave therapy.
It really isn't working with the therapist. The more I think about the crap she's been coming out with the more angry I get. I have to escape or I'll find myself trapped in a really crappy situation - getting shitty advice from a shitty cheap therapist who begrudges everything she supposedly does for me because it's pro-bono. I guess I have to just leave the situation. Not easy.
Doctor's tomorrow.
Spent today bravely holding off depression in anticipation of my first Labour Party meeting. Made it there and it was crap. You know all the boring meetings you've ever had to sit through, like, in your life? Well, double the pointlessness and triple the boredom and you're almost there. Jesus. They were all wierdoes, too. There was a Naive Middle Class Kid, a Stereotypical Working Class Man, a Sneering Man, and a man who looked like a stage magician or a circus ringmaster or something - it was the beard that did it, that and the suit. Oh, and some totally anonymous Party hacks as well, of course. To quote Douglas Coupland, they didn't have any aura.
Jesus wept. That's what's left of Democratic Socialism in this town, is it? I guess we're about fucked then.
After the meeting everyone got together in their little cliques - there was no attempt to welcome me as a newbie or anything, so I just fucked off, got some booze in, went home and watched Vanishing Point. Then to bed and worry about how to leave therapy.
It really isn't working with the therapist. The more I think about the crap she's been coming out with the more angry I get. I have to escape or I'll find myself trapped in a really crappy situation - getting shitty advice from a shitty cheap therapist who begrudges everything she supposedly does for me because it's pro-bono. I guess I have to just leave the situation. Not easy.
Doctor's tomorrow.