Short Lived

[rhyzome-soul.livejournal.com]

He found out.

The biggest "What if?"

[fitche.livejournal.com]

It is over...

I can't live my life on a what if. I did my best and that is all I can do. I was too heavy and heavy was the cost to be with me. Obligations were too strong and lives too different.

I make her feels special. I make her happy. I make her feel like no one else does in the world, but that wasn't enough. She is smart funny and the sweetest person I have ever met. I wasn't enough.

I am sorry for the pain I caused her and him as well. We all feel into this with out knowing how to get out.

I have said the things I need to say and theres left to do but for us to move on. I can't live my life on a what if.

Time for me to save or destroy another soul...

This will be my last post on this topic. From now on I'm just here to help people.

Thanks for everything _Asylum_ I'll give back as much as I can.

drugsssssss

[dissociatedmind.livejournal.com]

Why are these passive killers we call drugs so addictive?

I'm not even talking about the physically addictive ones...
My mind seems to be a slave to being high -  it doesn't matter what high it is.

WHY DO I NEED TO FEEL HIGH TO FEEL SOBER?
And why do I feel so uncomfortable sober?