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Aug. 4th, 2009 10:19 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
why cant people understand that when they ((overly)) ask about my molestations... that I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT?!!!
I told one of my friends the other day... and he kept asking what happened, who all did it, blah blah blah... which sent me into a majorly depressive state. Now I cant stop thinking about it. The only person I've ever really felt comfortable telling was my fiance, Matt.
I've been molested 3 times. By my two cousins and my own brother. When I tell people about my brother, they always dont believe me, and they say things like "well, he's younger than you, couldnt you have done something?" or "that cant be true, he is younger than you!"
why cant they just believe me???
Seriously, why would I make some shit like this up? I would never make something like this up, cos even though he did those things to me, I still love my brother. Even though him always wanting hugs reminds me of it, and makes me wanna rip off his balls...
:(( people cant understand anything anymore. And everytime I try to forget about all of this ((its greatly affecting my relationship, btw)) I cant forget it for awhile, and by the time I've almost completely forgot, someone asks about it.
This is very depressing. I dont want any affection anymore. I dont want anyone to touch me. I still have nightmares, and the thing with my brother happened when I was in kindergarden. with my two older cousins ((who are brother and sister)) it happened 6-7-8th grade.
I want to forget!!!!!!!
I told one of my friends the other day... and he kept asking what happened, who all did it, blah blah blah... which sent me into a majorly depressive state. Now I cant stop thinking about it. The only person I've ever really felt comfortable telling was my fiance, Matt.
I've been molested 3 times. By my two cousins and my own brother. When I tell people about my brother, they always dont believe me, and they say things like "well, he's younger than you, couldnt you have done something?" or "that cant be true, he is younger than you!"
why cant they just believe me???
Seriously, why would I make some shit like this up? I would never make something like this up, cos even though he did those things to me, I still love my brother. Even though him always wanting hugs reminds me of it, and makes me wanna rip off his balls...
:(( people cant understand anything anymore. And everytime I try to forget about all of this ((its greatly affecting my relationship, btw)) I cant forget it for awhile, and by the time I've almost completely forgot, someone asks about it.
This is very depressing. I dont want any affection anymore. I dont want anyone to touch me. I still have nightmares, and the thing with my brother happened when I was in kindergarden. with my two older cousins ((who are brother and sister)) it happened 6-7-8th grade.
I want to forget!!!!!!!