Greetings earthlings :P

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Newbie here.. i hate the word newbie yet i always use it when i introduce myself.. anyway, i'm Taz, i'm 21 and i'm psycotic even though my psycologist tells me otherwise. I'm bipolar, i have body dysmorphic disorder, i have bad paranoia, and a ed. I'm on medication and it does nothing but it keeps my doctor happy so all is well :P I'm a EMT by proffesion or well i'm meant to be, but i quit last year and have been locking myself in my room pretty much for the last year except on good days where i found courage to actually walk to the corner of the street. Yea i'm a nutcase in that sense and now recently i been forced out of the house to go see the doctors who say i'm normal... what  a joke. That's me in a nutshell :P

Visual seizures (+hallucinations?)

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i see flickering lights all the time, went to 5 or so doctors, now know its visual seizures. am taking Laminctin, just have to take more and more til it works, on 50mg right now, need at least 150mg apparently, working my way up slowly. was at a play the other night, started seeing really weird stuff. As well as millions of tiny flickering lights across my vision, people were glowing and i started seeing double a bit, like some things had a second version of themselves but 2 inches to the side. and things kept turning into other things, like i saw a face but it was actually an elbow and a book, and this was with many things not just one or two. i was quite tired but it felt like i was just drifting in and out of consciousness. and at one point it felt like i went out of my body for a few seconds and then was slammed back in. there is a history of schizophrenia in my family. could anyone shed any light on this? i'm going to talk to my psychologist and neurologist as well.