I don't think I am strong enough for this

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My husband might have cancer (still testing). At the very least there is something majorly wrong with him because he sleeps 20 hours a day and is deteriorating before my very eyes.

I love someone else. Absolutely, without abandon, love someone else besides my husband. I was seriously asking for a separation a few weeks ago. And now this.

What am I going to do? What is the right thing to do?