Grrr.

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It's never wise to watch a horror film at 2.00 a.m.

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I'm being a posting whore, I do apologise.

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Why is it the victims that are left picking up the pieces after...that?

How is it fair that the victims sink into depression, mania, fear, self-harm, drugs while.."he" goes on to have a great job, a wife, etc...And gets to live? How?

Surely, it should be him?
Surely he should be paying...Yet he seems to live freely?

I don't understand.

After all, surely he was the crazy one...to do what he did?
So how'd he transfer that to me? How? And why, why, why despite the "It's never the victims fault"...
It's only words. I don't understand them, or why people say it.

When it comes to me, it will always be my fault.

hey

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i haven't posted here for a while. i just started attempting ana boot camp. i still want to die. and guess what? the lame-ass meds that are freaking supposed to freaking help aren't doing a damn thing! i still have damn random mood swings, i still freak out over things that make sane people happy and i still fucking hate myself! oh wow i hardly ever swear. yikes. you see!!! i start laughing for no good reason and now all of the sudden im mad and oh my god my head hurts im so fucking confused!!! im having a lame-ass day that can only get worse tomorrow. somebody damn help me!!!