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[jxssica.livejournal.com]

so recently me and my mom got into a fight,
well obviously we fight like every day.
so anyways, she yells out of no where
"you need to fix yourself, you have a fucking personality disorder".
this whole time i thought i just had anxiety and depression
but maybe i do have something else wrong ?
hm..
i have a different personality for every one of my moods.
like, colors i like, music, clothes, friends, attitudes, everything changes depending how i feel.
sometimes i think of sadistic things and i enjoy every second of my insanity
and then if my mood changes i start crying and i get depressed because i feel ive done something wrong
whats wrong with meeee

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[ununpentium.livejournal.com]

Hi, I'm new here.

I'm diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression and Anxiety. I cut myself, too.

I've been in and out of psychiatric hospital for two years. I was sectioned under the mental health act in December 2007 for six months.

I believe my most recent time in hospital (which was a secure forensic hospital) has traumatised me. I saw a lot of horrible shit going on.

I can't work due to my anxiety, so I have a lot of spare time. I feel suicidal most of the time.

Anyway, that's me.

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[jxssica.livejournal.com]

i don't know whats wrong with me.
im sick of this
i cant keep being the way i am
i cant keep pretending im alive because im not
im dead already.