truth is, doubts are all i've got to call mine.

[napalm-lullaby.livejournal.com]

okay, so visitation today. i was a little less okay than i thought i was gonna be with it. called my manager, he was very cool with it, but i haven'tworked in a fucking week. >.<

funeral's tomorrow. johnny and i both have suits with pinstripes and they're all tailored and pretty and we look like we belong in the fucking mafia. the fedora he got and the pinstripes on the suits (mine is feminine with a skirt, of course) look... really good.
he's wigged out about being a pall (paul?) bearer, and understandably so. i'm strangely okay with it, i didn't cry during the visitation, but i cried on donny once we got on 64.

then we went to BJ's looking for a corset. they had none in my size, and there were none in the catalog that i liked. Feh.

after the funeral, i'm dyeing my hair. i always wanted to be a redhead. should be taking pictures. i hope it turns out okay.

i have the best boyfriend ever. after bj's we went all over frankfort looking for velveeta and he made fish sticks and cheesy noodles (because there is no macaroni in this house). i fucking love fish sticks.


sorry, i'm a little bit of everywhere.

i sleep much better when i've been drinking.






-cari


(x-posted to my personal journal)

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[stillbourne.livejournal.com]

::clicks on loudspeaker::


Good morning, Residents!

We have a fun project for you to start today!



Thats right: _asylum_ will be printing a series of posters and the staff would like YOUR poster art to be featured! Submit your entries to ljasylum@gmail.com by April 11th, 2008. The entries will be voted upon here on _asylum_ by you, and the 2 winning works of art will be run as posters.

( more information )

ANOTHER ANNOUNCEMENT:

The winner of the 2008 _asylum_ theme song is
Every day is exactly the same - Nine Inch Nails
( watch the video here )

This song will appear on the frontpage of the redesigned asylum website until 2009.

Life...depression

[parental-pawn.livejournal.com]

I've been fairly depressed recently. I'm in my last semester at school and all of my classes seem pointless.
Last weekend some friends who never call and invite me out with them, called and asked me to come over and hang out if I would bring drugs. I told them that I quit and didn't have any. They said that I was holding out on them.
I have been trying for two months to get a job interview with an organization that works with troubled kids. Finally got an interview and an observation and was waiting to hear back about a second interview, but got an email today saying that I was an "inapropriate fit" for the job.
I feel like crap and life seems pointless. I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow, but I'm afraid to tell him what I'm really thinking. He's tried to keep from leaving before and I don't feel like I can take 3 days in isolation at the local mental health lock down ward. I don't know what to do. I want to tell him the truth and get help, but if I still feel like this at the end of the hour and tell him the truth, he'll call the crisis team on me and the police will drag downtown "for my own safety". What should I do?

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[x-cupkake.livejournal.com]

*clicks on loudspeaker*

Evening ladies and gentlemen!

As I am sure y'all have noticed, the _asylum_ and the nurse_station have been going under some maintenance, as is the asylums site.
I just wanted to let y'all know my staff inbox is now up and running once again, along with my new email address:

♠Nurse Miserys Inbox
♠ nursemisery@asylymonline.org
♠ miseryxrevenant

So if any of you need to contact me, feel free, even if it's just to get some stuff off your chest =]

I'm away to work on some things for the site and community now, so I shall be online if I'm needed =].

*loudspeaker dies out*

(no subject)

[xxxsectomars.livejournal.com]

I am piecing together a book of pictures and poetry and things based on my life since I hit the breakdown of my schizophrenia...

Several people are interested in a copy.

It has about 50 pages.

When I get it done I'll let you all know so if your interested I can send a copy.

Thanks.

Guppy# 02211977
Fishtank: Palo Verde