a poem, cuz I can

[janepagan.livejournal.com]

too much of me
too harsh, unrestrained

this is the way I was formed
in the womb of my mother-goddess
growing still
into something
of my own intention

unable to move
without force
to speak
without purpose
to love
without everything I am

over and over I try
but I can't be
less than this

I speak with my eyes
I speak with my body
I open my mouth and the only sound
is a primal scream

too loud
for delicate ears

this is not an act
I am not here to play a part
I am a human soul
wrapped in flesh
and I am real

 

I am back-ish

[sapphireroseivy.livejournal.com]

I am having some issues.

I know that it's been a while since I have posted ... sorry to all. I missed you guys.

Life has been hectic and there has been a lot going on inside my head. There is so much noise at the moment that it is everything I can do to just sit and concentrate on typing this out.

The lil girl in the back has become active ... a lot lately and recently she has been changing what she says to me.

Not just negative reinforcement of the flaws that I have so very obviously but atively putting her opinion into different situations. This is very confusing and I need some time and help I think. This definitely bodes some investigation which I am delving into.

::waves::