words, writing , and feeling wretched

[midnight-lover.livejournal.com]

I receive an email from one of my online job applications and it's bad news. They said that they enjoy reading my sample essay and all but that my writing isn't a good match for their company.

It made me ask if I can really write. I mean I have always claimed that I am a writer of some sort...but I haven't really written anything at all. Sure, i do write poems and occasionally some personal essays, but what good are those if they are only acceptable to me, if other people just thinks they're crap...

God knows I love writing... But I dont know if it still loves me... Lately, I've running out of words. Writing isn't as natural as it once had been... And i could only sigh in resignation...

Maybe I'm not meant to write.