im going crazy

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so my sister came home from her internship in new jersey thursday instead of next weekend due to car troubles (damn her fucking car!) and now i am stuck dealing with her until we move into our respective dorms at respective colleges. problem: she is a huge trigger for me, and has already ruined months and months of resisting the urge to cut a few weeks ago when she was home for the weekend.
she finds things that she knows stress me out and she goes for it. and she always makes comments about my body, not good because i seem to be developing an eating disorder to top it all off (and yes i am plus-size but so the fuck is she and we both have been out entire lives).
i could put up with her being a complete asshole to me if she didnt act that way specifically toward me and no one else. it is like she intentionally attacks me with every once of her being.