maybe they'll care if I blow my fingers off?

[goaskjennifer.livejournal.com]

I WISH EVERYBODY WOULD GET OFF MY BACK ABOUT FINDING A JOB. AND YOU KNOW IVE BEEN FUCKING TRYING BUT ITS NOT MAKING EVERYONE SO FUCKING HAPPY. IM SICK OF BEING HOME ALONE. IM SICK OF FEELING LIKE AN IDIOT. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. AND IT SEEMS THE ONLY TIME IM HAPPY IS WHEN IM HANGING OUT WITH BIG SISTER. BECAUSE I LOOK UP TO HER AND I WANT TO BE LIKE HERE. I WANT TO BE HAPPY AGAIN. I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME GET MY LIFE IN ORDER. AND IT SEEMS LIKE ALL MY FRIENDS ARE THE SAME WAY. THEY DONT KNOW HOW TO HELP ME . AND IM JUST A WHINY BITCH AROUND THEM. MAYBE IF I LEAVE FOR A FEW DAYS THEN EVERYONE WOULD CARE. BUT HALF THE TIME THEY DONTKNOW THAT I LEFT TOWN. SO WHY SHOULD IT MATTER????

Wooot

[innocentjester.livejournal.com]

I just found out yesterday-ish that I am full of baby.

now what....