just wondering...

[iheartsantino.livejournal.com]

for my english class i am writing a paper on the film "requiem for a dream"... and i need to use at least 4 outside sources (... scholarly sources). i am having trouble finding what i am looking for. i am trying to find an article about emotional problems/depressions/whatever and how it can be connected to people forming addictions? anyone have any links that are scholarly? or maybe a journal that i can search for on my school website?

many thanks.

Cyanide and Happiness = LOVE

[cheekaboo.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the warm welcome. ;)

A way to beat boredom

[xxforsakenlovex.livejournal.com]

:looks around:

hmm, it seems quiet around here. Too quiet.

:comes out of room with drum machine and keyboard

:sets drum machine to right tempo:

Starts singing while playing keyboard:

"Creeping up the blind side, shinning up the wall
stealing through the dark of night
Climbing through a window, stepping to the floor
checking to the left and the right
Picking up the pieces, putting them away
something doesn't feel quite right

Help me someone, let me out of here
then out of the dark was suddenly heard
"Welcome to the Home by the Sea"

Coming out the woodwork, through the open door
pushing from above and below
Shadows with no substance, in the shape of men
round and down and sideways they go
Adrift without direction, eyes that hold despair
then as one they sigh and they moan

Help us someone, let us out of here
Living here so long undisturbed
dreaming of the time we were free
so many years ago
before the time when we first heard
"Welcome to the Home by the Sea"

Sit down...Sit down
As we relive our lives in what we tell you

Images of sorrow, pictures of delight
things that go to make up a life
Endless days of summer, longer nights of gloom
waiting for the morning light
Scenes of unimportance, photos in a frame
things that go to make up a life

Help us someone, let us out of here
Living here so long undisturbed
dreaming of the time we were free
so many years ago
before the time when we first heard
"Welcome to the Home by the Sea"

Sit down...Sit down
as we relive our lives in what we tell you
let us relive our lives in what we tell you

Sit down...Sit down
Cause you won't get away
no with us you will stay
for the rest of your days. So sit down
As we relive our lives in what we tell you
Let us relive our lives in what we tell you..oh!"

(no subject)

[freakishmind75.livejournal.com]

Taking a couple of steps backward in life so I can learn to grow up, adding a bit of structure that hasn't really been there before. I'm going nowhere if I continue living the way I do, so I'm making some changes to learn how to take care of myself. I might actually end up happy, and that's exciting. :)

Too many questions..too few answers

[khamulthefirst.livejournal.com]

Attn all:

I know alot of you have some questions about this Ministry that I am currently putting together. So I've decided to use this post as a Q & A segment. Ask me anything you'd like about this topic and I'll explain it to you using the best of my abilities.

Got it? Now start asking!

On boredom and loneliness- the inevitable price of answering back.

[krazyside.livejournal.com]

The more I think, the more bored I get, the more bored I get, the more I end up meditating on how stupid I am, and so I get depressed, and can't do anything, so I get bored, and so I meditate on how stupid I am for fucking my life up.

I wouldn't mind, but I really don't see how there was anything else I could have done. Lemon after lemon after lemon, and I'm supposed to just sit there grinning and take it.

OK, for the record: Next time something comes along and makes my life "interesting" (Chinese proverb definitely intended) I'll just sit back and take it. I'm so tired of avoiding my ancient nemesis, a load of abuse, only to be confronted with something just as bad, the howling void of nothingness. Because let's face it, there's no third choice - people are either broadly indifferent, or out to pwn you, or out to exploit you. With indifference you end up in an empty world, with pwning you end up living like a fugitive and with exploitation you end up with lots of fun drama.

So fine. Come on fuckwits - make my day... Crazy ladies, I'm emotionally vulnerable, good looking and have low self esteem. Why not exploit me for cheap emotional and sexual gain? You know you want to, and I promise right here and now that I'll never answer back again. Use me - abuse me - I looove it (well, more than I hate the alternative- as one of you so rightly pointed out last year, I ain't getting any younger and you're probably the best I'll ever get...)

Narcissistic fuckwits - I'm a source of cheap labour, for which YOU can get the credit! I won't complain even when you threaten me and take the piss out of me in front of collegues, because my life is so fucking dull I'll even put up with you if it means I'll get some work done.

Psychos - OK it will be hard, nay impossible, to put up with the psychopaths, but I'm trying, OK!

Sheesh. You'd think that taking shit was somehow a duty and a responsibility. You'd think that the only people who have a right to be treated well and have friends are the selfish, stupid drama queens of this world, they who shout loudest and think the least. Perhaps I should just let them turn me into a quiet doormat like I was at school. Perhaps I should just lie down and let that steamroller of power run over me at last, be it sexual power, corporate power, or social power - I don't have any and it's pointless to avoid fate any more.

That's how I feel - resigned to my fate of being either treated like shit for life or bored and lonely for life or even some horrible combination of the two - lonely one year, shat on the next, then lonely when I shrug off the person who has been shitting on me, then shat on again when I'm so desperate for human contact that I meet up with someone who shits on me and....

AAAAAARRRGGGGHHHH!!!

MORAL:
Never answer back those who have appointed themselves your betters, kids. You'll just end up a lonely bitter old man, because they hold all the cards and you have none. They have the sex card, the money card, the friends card, every single one in the pack. So don't rock the boat - just shut up do what you're told, or end up like me.