I was just thinking.

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About a lot of things that have been good lately. As of friday I have felt beyond amazing. This is something new. I'm telling the truth to my parents, my best friend even approves (which to me matters even more than my parents doing so). How can i tell him that he has taken me to a level of happiness I thought only existed in fairy tales? I have never been good with words, but i can feel it in my heart. Compared to him the rest of the men in my life have been abusive and neglecful, maybe I'm seeing it clearly for the first time now. People have it worse but I think i deserve this. We deserve this. All of us do.
He took me on a date, an actual date. out of the four and a half boyfriends i have ever had this is the second one i have been on. He kissed me in the cafe, he was nervous, he makes me feel like I'm worth something. I hope he asks me to do something this wednesday. The rest of the world doesn't matter (with the exception of Morgan) for me because of him. I feel at ease.
I can't wait to see him, but i can wait. He happens to be the only man that my fantasies cannot beat, only he will do, my dreams have nothing on him.
Sometimes life's okay.
It took a while but I have a good feeling about this.
With thanks to my best friend to whom all of this is possible.

:)
The World Is Not A Cold Dead Place.