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[silenceiskey.livejournal.com]

Today....just might be the end. I have to go spend a day with my ather, uncle, and alcoholic grandmother. Those three are direct descendants from hell and I'm just like them. My uncle is going to end up throwing me into the river...and that's it. My dreams last night pretty much confirmed something not good is going to happen. Basically they said that upon being frustrated as all hell with other things, that my ass would be in some trouble.

They're all gonna yell at me all at the same time and then...that's it.

-crawls into corner-

I'm not coming out

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[twystedblyss.livejournal.com]

It's amazing how much having one of your dreams come true can change your outlook on things in a heartbeat. I was having such a bad time, and now I MET AMY LEE!!!! We went to the concert in Toronto, and oh my god we got her autograph, we got pictures of her, fuck we met the whole band. I'm feeling so much better right now, I just wish this high could last forever...just thought I would let everyone know that, for once, I am HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!

Just click on my journal if you want to read the whole story and see the pics, it's a public entry!

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[twystedblyss.livejournal.com]

I know I keep saying this, but I met Amy Lee on Thursday at the concert. It was amazing. It was like I sang to her...wow...

I will never forget this feeling. Whenever I listen to their music and look at the pictures I have I will be able to get back to that place, THIS place, and feel this natural high again. I have that place to go to now. It's an amazing, life changing feeling.

a little story about...

[dont-hold-me-up.livejournal.com]

( Last night )

The Bird

[freakishmind75.livejournal.com]

I'm kind of creeped out...there is a bird sitting in the tree outside my window and every sixty seconds or so it flies up and starts violently pecking at the glass. Maybe it's seeing its reflection? I don't know what the deal is but it just keeps doing this.

Even weirder, I woke up at about 7:30 this morning to the sound of this bird attacking my window and it's been repeatedly doing this ever since. I haven't really been home the whole time so I'm not sure, but it definitely did for about three hours this morning before I left. WTF?

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[silenceiskey.livejournal.com]

I'm depressed. Very much...depressed.

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[carmex-junkie.livejournal.com]

This universe: Today I called in because I was having massive cramps. Very painful.

Parallel: Today I realized that I am now making 40K a year. I fucking love my job. Tomorrow I shall wink at the sexy maintenance woman over my morning starbucks just because I know she thinks I'm hot.

This universe: Amy cried for half an hour today because her family ditched her and went to nashville without her. It is so mean. On top of that they tried to lie to her about it. I hate them. I want to kill them for hurting her feelings and making her so miserable. She is going to theirs today anyway, I'm sure. So she can spend time with the baby. I hate that fucking baby. And I'll be alone with nothing good to eat and nothing good to do. So depressing.

Parallel: When I got home today Amy suprised me with new lacy gettup. Very hot. I can't believe how great she looks these days. We've been working out together a lot. I love her so much. I just want to make love to her all day!

This universe: Sometimes ... everday actually. I wonder if I could just make this whole world and everyone in it disapear if I tried hard enough. Everything feels hopeless and ruined. I want to start over. Run away.

Parallel: I worked hard for where I am today and I've never felt so confident and strong. Me and Amy have never been better. I want it to be like this forever.

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[twystedblyss.livejournal.com]

I  can't believe that this feeling is real. The only tears I want to cry are happy ones, because a true dream of mine came true. This feels so weird...I've never felt like this before. It's like this high I will never, ever come down from, because it really did change my life. I still can't believe it was real...

Just like a dream
Going in slow motion
Emotions so intense
And feelings I've never experienced before
So hard to believe it's real
Even though the proof is right in front of me
Feels like I'm on Cloud Nine
And I am never going to come down
I will hold on to this feeling forever
And I will never be alone again
Because that moment in time, I made a difference
To someone who has touched my life so deeply...
It's indescribable
The connection
The memories
It was priceless
Worth everything I have ever been through
Just to have this dream come true...

It's almost like I feel lightheaded, but I am so ALIVE right now. It so weird. I never, ever thought I would meet the ENTIRE BAND, all of EVANESCENCE, and hug them all and kiss Amy and look right into her eyes while I not only talked to her outside in line but connected with her while she was on stage as well. It's just so...ROCK ROYALTY!!!!!!

OK, that's enough now