dont-hold-me-up.livejournal.comSometimes I'm like what the fuck, what the fuck am I doing with my existence? I mean I'm going to be turning 19 tommorow and I still feel as if my life really has no direction. I mean yeah I'm going to school and all but still it just seems like I'm going nowhere. I say I want to be a writer yet I barely write. I have no other idea what I'd do with my life. I don't know it's just all very confusing.
In another note this weekend should be interesting. Tommorow is my birthday and my parents will be up. Then tommorow night, after my parents go to a hotel, I'm going to a party, then the next day I have to hike up a mountain for the Honors Student Ascociation, now the simple solution would be to not go to the party, however it's not tthat simple. The party is for my friend Nat's 21st birthday which is Saturday, the reason the party is Friday is because the party doesn't really get into full swing till after 12, and like everyone I know is going. I really don't want to be left out. So the upside to this is I don't get hangovers, who knows if I'll even get fucked up, probably I'll just have a few drinks and if I feel like it maybe smoke a little, so the only effect it will have on my hike is that I'll be tired, which I guess I'll deal with. I'll let everyone know how it works out.