An unexpected return

[xxforsakenlovex.livejournal.com]

:starts making way from room with tome book under arm:

walks out towards graveyard:

:begins walking around as to ease restless mind:

:while walking, falls into open grave and lands on top of casket.

Ow, what the hell? What's this open grave doing here? There's no bodies in the morgue?

:shines flashlight on marker that reads "Nurse FluorineFrenzy"

What the...?

:opens casket, only to find that casket is empty.:

!!!

:Opens tome to summoning page and looks at sigil, quickly climbs out of grave and runs to spot where charred remains of sigil are. Notices that sigil described is the one listed as capable of summoning muliple spirits.:

"oh no.. what have we done?

:runs back inside and silently enters fluorine's office:

:noticing her fast asleep, checks for wounds that suppposidly "killed" her before.

:is horrorstruck when findings reveal that wounds are completely healed:

:backs away slowly and dashs back to room and barricades door:

"curls up in corner muttering "not possible..not possible"

Hahahaha

[damianarose.livejournal.com]

Thought you guys would like this!

http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/sleep/sheep/reaction_version5.swf

God and shoot sheep with tranq darts and tests your reaction time!

I was a bobbing bobcat!

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[locketsandkeys.livejournal.com]

I've been working on my driver's license! I haven't been around and all. But I'm back, I think! For awhile at least. Still don't have the license, but I'm working on it. >.>

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*clutches her doll Cheeta to her chest, padding silently down the hall...finds a spot to sit down by a broken window and starts picking at the strings of the stitches on her wrist*

..It's not like Atticus's work...it's uncomfortable. I wonder where the person is that broke all our windows..I must thank them. I haven't seen a glassless blue sky in so long.

wtf

[xx-natalie-xx.livejournal.com]

So I'm more depressed than I have been in a long time. I got two new jobs, great paying jobs, so I'll be quitting Subway in a couple of weeks hopefully. July 11th, I go to get my wisdom teeth out, so I'll start one of my new jobs the week after that. I already started the other one.

I want to cut so bad. We got a Dremel...and wow, heh. It's tempting. I'd probably end up hitting bone if I used that. Bad thoughts, bad thoughts. GO AWAY!!!

I have to go to my cousin's wedding tomorrow. It's in Lake George.. New York. Shawn just up and decided to tell me this evening that he wasn't going...apparently because I'm so bitchy. Well, if he didn't talk to me like I was a piece of shit, MAYBE I wouldn't be so bitchy. It makes me feel like shit. Because when we're getting along, things couldn't be better. But when we aren't getting along, things couldn't get worse...unless of course I cut myself. And that wouldn't do anything but piss him off more (I think). He doesn't understand how I feel inside. Like, I feel like all these emotions are literally swirling around inside of me and I have no way to get them out. Like those tornados in 2 liter soda bottles. It's just stuck in there. :-(
I almost flipped out on a couple of customers at Subway today. Well, I did kinda flip out on one of them. And he realized it...by saying, after he found out I got two other jobs,"You need to get outta this place, you're gonna end up jumping over the counter and killing someone." Yeah, so that about sums it up, the way I've been feeling today.

I have two friends. But I don't want to talk to either of them about exactly what I'm feeling. No one understands. Which is why I think I should REALLY start seeing a therapist again. Before I lose it. Lose myself. Again. It's taken me so long to get to the stability I've reached and I feel like it's just slowly fading away. Why? Why now, when I get two new jobs? When I'm trying to start doing good for myself? I want to get a brand new car, I NEED to pay off my student loans starting this fall, I want to get a couple of new tattoos on my wrist...so I don't feel the urge to cut. But how am I going to accomplish all of this when I can barely keep a straight mind?

I need to go to the shooting range. That'll help me blow off some steam. I should start going once a week. I haven't gone in a few months. It's only 27 bucks. 

Alright...I'm done, I think I'm gonna head back to my house and try to catch Shawn before he goes to the races...I want to go with him...spend time with him...try to talk to him. :-( I'm pathetic. I know this.

...natalie