yeah

[undivinemartyrx.livejournal.com]

It's almost over. Just a few more days, then some tests, then finally this four year hell they call high school. It's hard to believe that it's actually going to be over. That in a few months I won't just be rolling on back in. The people I've become accustomed to seeing all the time I won't see anymore. I mean I'm happy that things are going to change but also one of the things I'm most afraid of is change. I'll be fine though when I'm faced with it, I always adjust. So yeah it's all very exciting. Thats all

Another Long Rent

[sadandangry.livejournal.com]

I am in so much emotionally pain. My mood is so low. I am going to crazy. I am depressed. I can't take that pain anymore. The pain is just overwhelming and I'm too exhausted and too tired to fight. I am done with the struggle and the pain. Alice I am very upset. I am so confused. I feel very miserable tonight. I just want to hold you close. Tell me that everything will be okay. I want to cry on your embrace. I don't know how to be strong and hopeful anymore. I am lossing my grip and my sanity, lossing my mind. Everything is going downhill. Spin out of control and torning apart. I'm giving up on trying. I'm really feeling miserable inside. My heart is broken into tiny little pieces. Feeling like somoene has stab over and over with a knife. Sigh, i have so many rage, anger and frustration inside me. I feel deep hatred toward people and life. The rage is just spread slowly and sliently like a cencer cell. I am so angry all the time. Feeling very frustrated and insecure. I push away people that who is trying to help me. I shut myself down to my feeling.

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[stillbourne.livejournal.com]

Its Time For Thursday Therapy!

OKIES, today I will give you a flash game to occupy your mind now....
and a request we have received- a project we can all work on....

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it's not easy having a conscience

[pentaheart666.livejournal.com]

Have you ever felt like there's this other part of you that you're constantly opposing?  I spend so much time talking to myself in my head, as though I were another person.  Whenever I think about saying or doing something, I always argue against my own original point of view.  This is what causes me to always hold back.  I'm never sure of myself.

There's this other side of me that hates me.  It dwells in my head.  I can't get it out. It gives me nightmares. It always tries to convince me to believe the down side of everything.  It puts me down and is always negative.  It tried to convince me to block out and hate everyone who loved me.  I have ways to tame it but it never lets go.  It still holds its grip. It never ceased to dement my train of thought. It's always triggered by something, almost as though it'll take any chance it gets to completely destroy everything I could possibly love or want to love. 

This is what it means to be your own worst enemy.  Now I'm starting to understand how people develop multiple personality disorder.  But the scary thing is, this is only a taste of what it's like.  I can't imagine blacking out and waking up someplace else without knowing where I am or how I got there. I'm only in peace when my other self agrees with me or doesn't say anything at all.  My main point is: this can't be healthy. 

conscience

Draw Steel

[xxforsakenlovex.livejournal.com]

Vengence may very well be mine soon.

soon the nightmare can end and my suffering can be over.