::Packing Up My Room::

[elira-wiken.livejournal.com]

I want to thank Nurse stillbourne for a wonderful room and cookies and all that. I want to thank some of the members for cookies and things like that. This was my home for over a year when I started with the name Carrietta White. But as Alexia Nevermind I have grown and learned to cope outside of the _asylum_ it is time for me to leave. You all will be missed, if you wish you are more then welcome to add me, as my journal has become public. You'll have to comment somewhere if you want to read the friend's locked entries. My room is fully cleaned out and ready for the next inmate. I hope everyone finds peace within themselves as I have slowly found. I know if I ever need a home I can come back here again.

The more I look around, the more I start to hate myself.

[xkissxmexkillx.livejournal.com]

I'm having weight problems.
I'm Dropping weight like crazy.
Now you must start to hate me, because I'm bitching about being skinny.
I'm 5'8 and 96 pounds right now.
My mother won't take me back to the doctor's,
And the more I eat, the more weight I drop.
I have to eat in the middle of the night because i wake up with a growling stomach.
I'm constantly eating during the day, just to have the energy to make it to class.
And yet i'm sleepy, cold, and hungry all the fucking time.

I'm really scared.
Surprisingly enough.
I'm planning on having kids soon, and I'm hoping this won't affect me.

I'm right smack dab in the middle of a low.
I hate going anyplace. To work, to school, out with my boyfriend, anyplace.
I hate comparing myself to every single girl i see, and i hate thinking "will he like her more than me?"
It hurts. Everything hurts. This FUCKING HURTS.
The more i look around, the more I start to hate myself.
I don't feel anything but hatred when I look in the mirror.
I've lost so much weight in my face, I don't recognize myself most days.
I've established that I'm fucking crazy, many times over.
But this is beyond crazy. I'm scaring myself.
I feel like my subconscious is sabotaging me from the inside out.
I'm really crazy now.
Really really crazy.

Ask Away. . .

[sinnliche.livejournal.com]

YOU CAN ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS
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No matter how random, revealing, rude, or pointless
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I swear to answer them 100% truthfully.
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Don't be scared of what you might be hiding...

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[stillbourne.livejournal.com]

Ward A1, welcome damianarose into room 3.

more room updates shortly.
I have to go home now
Ill return to my office shortly.
behave while Im gone. ::giggle::