succubus602.livejournal.comWell, it has been proved that I really DO have control over electricity when I'm in a happy/confident mood...well...I don't know about confident, it's more that I feel evil..I feel so powerful, and I shoot people strange smiles specifically designed to make them feel slightly uneasy....
Anyway.
I had a few strange experiences today. I was waiting for the bus, and there were all these people there waiting too, but they kept disappearing. Like, I'd be looking at them, and then they'd be gone and I couldn't remember seeing them leave. And then, I was standing against a wall and I walked away for a second, and when I turned around there was someone where I had been...so I thought "damn, he took my spot"...then the next thing I knew, I was crouched down in that very spot, and I cannot recall him leaving or me returning to the spot. Weird.
Then I got on the bus, and after a couple of stops, the light came on saying someone wanted off. We stopped, and no one got off. We started driving and the light came on again. We stopped at the next stop, and again, no one got off. The driver asked who was pulling it and not getting off, and everyone looked confused, because no one had done it. So we started driving again, and the light came on, he asked if anyone had pulled it, and a woman said "I was looking around to everyone, and no one's done it." As she was saying this, it dinged twice more, then the lights came up, went down, dimmed, a single bulb came on, it lit up again, and then they went down. The "next stop" light was stuck on, so the driver said to just yell if anyone wanted off. Luckily, two other people were getting off at my stop (thank god for living on a high-traffic stretch of road), so I didn't have to yell. But then, as I was walking down the street, every streetlight I passed under, went out. I got a lot of weird looks, and all the while, I wondered if the lights had gone back to normal after I'd got off the bus, or if it had really been something wrong with the bus itself.
This isn't the first time something like this has happened. As I said, everytime I feel confident/evil, something happens. Whether it's just streetlights going on and off, bus doors random opening and closing as we are driving (New Years), me touching someone and their watch stopping at that moment, or, like when I was at work at the theatre, my watch suddenly dying and then all of the tills in the building shutting down after I touched them, followed by a short power outage. If this is all just coincedence, they're very VERY strange coincedences.
The other odd thing was that as I approached my apartment door, I heard music and conversation from inside, but I knew there was no one there. Sure enough, when I got in, it was empty...but I swear, I heard it. I've heard people talking about me in the staff room at work before when there was no one there, I've heard people call my name, I've seen people on the sides of the road....blah.
And all this, after my sister and I talked about how I had narrowly escaping being forced into the mental institution in Dartmouth last year. Although I hear they have a nice library and they treat their patients really well, so maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Sometimes I wish I'd answered her question another way, then I'd know. At the same time, I'd rather not lose my control over ending my life. I like to know I could do it at any time.
So, weirdness. But I like it. It makes me fell so powerful. Maybe I am crazy.