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So I'm hot, right? FUCK OFF.
So I'm intelligent right? " "
So I'm funny right? " "
So I'm a cool chicky right? " "
I'm sick of this shit. All the praise clashing with the few judgement calls (regarding my sanity and whatnot) I am sane...I'm MY fucking version of sane and personally it looks a hell of a lot more satisfying then many other peoples definitions of it.
I might have my issues, but the people that matter and are real accept them...because they know full well that I will be the first to jump in there and attempt to help them in dealing with theirs.
So Monday I may love the world and Tuesday I may want to put my fucking face through a mirror, but y'know what? I will not feel seperated by it. I'm a member of humanity (regardless of how many times I'd prefer to deny it) and what may bombard my mind (how unstable it may feel) is human.
Sure I have my addictions and afflictions and those days where life would just seem so much better if it ended quickly, but hey, living miserable/hurt/joyous/angry...it's all living.
You're damn right I didn't ask to be here, but with that in mind would anyone? There are so many miserable people out there. All I know is there are people far more miserable than I and I will not pretend they don't exist or that I am worse off. So in that, with what I have to work with...why the hell not attempt to strive for happiness? It could be a figment, damn right...but I'm willing to test the Fates and see exactly what they will let me push them to. Even Death itself. There's been many times I could have been taken...maybe I'm just entertaining to them, regardless I just feel that I should fight until I fall. I am that up against mankind, I can be that facing life.
This is all I wanted to say.
So I'm intelligent right? " "
So I'm funny right? " "
So I'm a cool chicky right? " "
I'm sick of this shit. All the praise clashing with the few judgement calls (regarding my sanity and whatnot) I am sane...I'm MY fucking version of sane and personally it looks a hell of a lot more satisfying then many other peoples definitions of it.
I might have my issues, but the people that matter and are real accept them...because they know full well that I will be the first to jump in there and attempt to help them in dealing with theirs.
So Monday I may love the world and Tuesday I may want to put my fucking face through a mirror, but y'know what? I will not feel seperated by it. I'm a member of humanity (regardless of how many times I'd prefer to deny it) and what may bombard my mind (how unstable it may feel) is human.
Sure I have my addictions and afflictions and those days where life would just seem so much better if it ended quickly, but hey, living miserable/hurt/joyous/angry...it's all living.
You're damn right I didn't ask to be here, but with that in mind would anyone? There are so many miserable people out there. All I know is there are people far more miserable than I and I will not pretend they don't exist or that I am worse off. So in that, with what I have to work with...why the hell not attempt to strive for happiness? It could be a figment, damn right...but I'm willing to test the Fates and see exactly what they will let me push them to. Even Death itself. There's been many times I could have been taken...maybe I'm just entertaining to them, regardless I just feel that I should fight until I fall. I am that up against mankind, I can be that facing life.
This is all I wanted to say.