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i would swear on my life that something is following me places.but i won't cuz i want to see how much farther i can screw up my life. but anyway... i have been getting this feeling again like sprits are watching me but no all the time. like just a second ago i started to get really cold and then hot again. it's a feeling i can't really explain in words but something is there hiding in the corners of places i go. i don't know what they would want I'm not useful to them anymore. i don't know much about their world anymore only what i remember being told. i was told by a sprit a while ago when they used me to get thru to other people but I'm not sure if i could do that anymore. the only thing i could seem to think of that they may want is me to kill some people that they need. i have never done that for them before i have only been able to kill their souls not the whole person. i think i killed my soul with doing this though. do they still think i have the strength to do this?? would i still have the power?? i don't know about what they would want much anymore. so can someone please tell me what you think they need from me?